i still smoke out of your bowl
i like to pretend i can taste you on it
even though i've cleaned it twice
all the time i get lit
to make my mind feel nice
cuz thoughts of you echo
throughout my whole body
i feel you in my blood stream
it makes me wanna scream
but your magic bowl fixes all

wow
guess i'm relying on you still
gotta get my fill
you've made me so ill
brain cells killed
i don't want to feel.

people use me like a rest stop
all my relationships are brief
they get what they need & then leave
they think i'm ok with it
that i'm so "different"
but i'm waiting for the person
who sees that it's a lie

She doesn't read poetry.
Everything pretty I've ever
wrote for her has remained
unread like junk mail.

you played me too much
i'm worn and done with this game
sore from being dropped so much
and trying to be tamed

you used me and threw me out
like nothing more than trash
it's obvious to you i'm disgusting
like a highly contagious rash

a porcelain doll tossed around
now all that's here is broken glass
I'm useless and damaged
not a person not even half

the devil on my shoulder
is also my best friend
not because i enjoy his company
but he's the only one who will listen

the angel on my shoulder
left after too many mistakes
said i was breaking his tiny heart
didn't know how much more he could take

so the devil now is my only confidant
the only one who helps me out
sure we get into some trouble
but he never has a doubt

he doesn't leave when things get hard
and i know why that is
he likes to see my life spiral downwards
because then it relates to his

the thing i like about cigarettes
isn't even the buzz
I just like the feeling of breathing in poison
and blowing it right out

I enjoy seeing the smoke leave me
and float in the air
like a ghost
until it disappears
to me it's beautiful

cigarettes are deadly, but that's something
most people know
but baby my addiction to you is even stronger
bet it will **** me first too

see I can quit cigs and deal with the
headaches and ****
but giving up you is still tearing me apart
shredding my insides

i wish that when i inhaled the poison
that is your breath
it would have been as easy to blow it out
and get rid of it

just like a cigarette though
you've blackened my insides
you darkened my heart
they darkened my lungs
but you didn't come with the warning label

take me to the ocean that's where i want to die
thats where you sat and held me every time i cry
but now my tears are because of you
so it's the only thing i want to do
you're my anchor so release me
and watch me drown at sea
i can see you're done trying
which means i should be done crying
but these tears will never end
into the depths i'll descend
my insides are already sinking
caused by too much deep thinking
so please let me drown in the sea
don't pretend that you'd miss me