it knocked me out
in the dead of night
that one a.m. hustle

her
body was cold
she felt dead
curved as the arctic waves
I couldn't **** her

-
the
dark and cold
woman
stood there

in
the expanse
of frigid white air
-

I am a man
knowing what may be
of wandering the streets
in the cold December nights
after the snowfall and the caroling
what is it?
I thought to myself
as wine flowed into my brain
the hot wine that is the late night love
that's there in the corner

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come down
on my wax

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say
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missing

river
running

flowers
on the damp
hill

eyes
on a
face

To the most incredible person I've ever known, Samantha Callahan*

the cars
brush past me
like some coordinated wind
that flies against my body
I keep to walking
blinded
by the future in your blue eyes
that I fall into each time
I close mine
****
oh my God
that's sappy
but
you know,
it's life
it's you
and
it always was

the lack of heat from the
tiles of the floor
embraces me
in the coldest love
I have ever known
such a kid I thought
to myself
with such a way
ahead
a land of cold
floor tiles
that will love me
in company

the sun rays
cast a watery image
of numb existence

s
he

w
as

****

a
nd it really killed me
with her skin
a
bl
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I could wrap
my
self

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she walked toward
me in those ancient *******
******* grandma

the hard lines
of beauty seem to
fall apart
rusty gears of
grandfather clocks
disintegrate into
some familiar ash
that grazes the hazy
battlefield

the cold,
tantalizing fire
looked at me—
a stranger
and knew me—
a lover

in the
enormous room
filled with white air
I found it mostly challenging
to inhale
what must of been there
I know that
has dispersed into the room
my bed—
floats on and on
into what must be
infinity

we have finally made it to know nobodies
who wander the horizon lines
of our hasty dreams

this is it
to those girls I once knew
who I kissed with all my conviction
they held my hands
they held my hands
is this what it feels like?
to let go of time?

fall into the sky
it is something so painful
this glorious blue sky
and the cicadas hum in my ear
and the sky
it takes me
every single time

and I'm only a kid
who's lost in his time
jotting down love
as if notes could find
me in this maze
the cold reality
of the sky

From what it must of been
in the diminished flame of
candied ghosts that
stained my tongue

And what must be there
must of been some melancholic high
that it killed me

For what it was thought to be
but only an envelope lost
in the mailbox
the cold blue darkness

what had flew from my arms
dispersed in the cold
bed sheets of the future

naked
****

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And her kisses were lush
I could grasp it all
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lever
sun
young
****
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