We’ve always
learned in school
that if you were found
to have written
something that
someone else wrote
(even unintentionally)
you would be
reprimanded.
But even then
I've always wondered;
out of the billions
how could I
possibly
be so unique?

I trace places you used to touch
Looking for echoes of your fingertips

I light candles where you used to stand
Trying to recreate the warmth you exuded

I wrap your sweaters around my body
Mimicking the sensation of your arms around me

I listen to the clinks of wine glasses
Pretending we're back on our first date

I stare at your lips in your pictures
Wishing I had kissed you longer

I thought losing you would get easier
But I miss you more every minute

Tonight, deep in
residential woods

at the foothill of the
butte who towers
the city-

the needle touched
the record
and Tenderly,
Tenderly played

you spoke to me
in quiet,
in silence,
and my stillness
was the counter
that you needed so

I made a deal with
fondness-
to open the most secret
vaults of my vulnerability
and sell my soul to hope
and design

at Fox Hollow's
smokey dusk,
with you

I shook the hand of love.

Before I leave..
  And I let you go..
Know that I was going to stay..
  And look out the window with you when it all happens..

They say the sky will turn red and yellow..
   The air will make you fall into the best sleep possible..
The most beautiful dreams will come..
   And you will find heaven..

I am off to a place called Earth..
  Leaving our Mars behind..
To start all over..
  And wait till you are born again..
I will find you..  
I will see are then crimson planet from the Earth sky and always remember you..

PART TWO  When I arrive

I can't explain
How it turned into an excruciating pain
I was just standing on a plain
Now I feel like rolling down from a mountain
Please take me on a train
And set free my tired brain

I'm broken inside
Even I know you're by my side
I'm still loving you
And its true

I want to forget
The pain you gave, I regret
I might be not the better
But I'm always here for you forever.

- SS

Me who wears leggings in the heat
Me whose boyfriend has a smile that can't be beat
Me who hides scars embedded deep in my wrists
Me who wants so badly to be missed
Me who goes on isolated walks
Me who never talks
Me who loves to be kissed
Me who has wished
Me who doesn't belong
Me who is wrong
Me who is cared for
Me who they adore
Me who is needed
Me who was pleaded
Me who was kissed
Me who will be missed
Me