<3 <3
pump pump
love love proud
proud beat beat soul
rhythm one son beating
many drums all of loving!!!! :)

still running rapids
but we're still riding
hanging together and
further on up a bank we'll
get more the mind will have
to remember and all the more
to forget!!! but we will be more ever
well bonded; nah yah so ya kno me as
you already well enough im not the type
to save my self while riding my beloved to
change her in mid stream just because some
little birdy says save yourself there is no hope
together; I am bigger badder than impossibilities
we create I've been destroyed many ways over cats
got nothing on me but oh perhaps a bit more fur and
um some competition with the purring!!! hahaha; went
to movie Lite Heart of me and Star Dust manifest too also be
to see The Other Son and what did I learn I will share here now
Ka Ra Being, Sa Sa Sa in Hebrew
means Go Go Go!!!! Guess just
easier better sweeter warmer
to run into the sweetness
of loving flames
than to run
from dum'
yum!!!
XXOO!!
Sa Sa!!!
Ra!!!

Starry Starry high moon nearly half of waxing
trailing the son running the show in Great Barrington
Western Mass., the Berkshires always so dreamlike as if like on
account of such frostings; and we prepare details in so many ways
for so many days dark or light no difference this way this it's all him first
of there and last to leave likely then I'll be still again the usually there but otherwise
he'll cover my door and I'm my own creative spectator and scout when more involved I'm a holy rout';
also I am fully prepared for out a sleep under stars in the small town I love Smithsonian said as small ones be you may consider it numeral one to be; be it or not your cup of tea or time for such; I may seek the church by morn with to be and by the story with the song and story within Alice's Restaurant would seem soup kitchen on turkey day might be an ordinary thing to lend the love with arms hearts and hands if not Kripalu best yoga center about and food there be a walk in just a simple fee and best of company so kids are so well growing up and slowly I'm waking from my own harrowed cup; and I never stop loving with all hate or betray all betrayals or feel more need of forgiveness be I've done enough and so much more and in perfect abandonment and all betrayal all the more seven billion family be and this beautiful universe that rings and rings and rings sings singing all love all beauty be and all is willing and shares all that too; rocks and trees coming greater still, waters woods wilds calling routing for us all ever closer the Great of opportunity ever ripening within about to fall upon us all....
<3 <3 Pump Pump jump start it up!!!!

wouldn't couldn't make any sense at all
but why by, by why not with try try cry cry
look look I, I beauty be twisted turned by scoundrel
soul of I did be did see the torment of twisted tales of faeries
and shiny knights and the darkest nights of fear put there why
for twisted power over holy love and the breeze about whom's truly free
but are we not better as accuser jury judge judgmental no judgement be we
for sneaky snake we judge his hunger and his take the very need of even feed
for this humble be with the man whom was there and takes no point in defense where
the story be it was even he who wrote the book whom had beloved Eve bite the ever need of all
of we's and down and on and beyond and out and say as fools the pain there here is today is some
blame of some garden gone and the castrated pained and labored out but there was not then and is no none this now, not this way anyhow; here as then didn't make any sense at all then and all the less here the ever one generation of the ever now; we cling to stability of status quo and if the ever now will ever be all about loving, every status quo will likely and simply just have to go go go into the ever transmutable flowing loving giving of the ever flowing of all there really is as LOVE of which we are and too the imperishable sentient spirits of many ever rivers

I just knew I had to get there
try to begin again again yay
it was not conveniently along
the way to any ordinary business
else i had along to get on this day
but when i finally arrived i forgot
if it were the coffee or the chocolate
shop...20 oz got the mud and like me
just a single dark chocolate coconut turtle love
no trip to sip upon my way to self serve raw milk cows
and so return to head of the class or is it the line free pass
and refill...so coffee shop and coffee house does play; 'your troubles
are my troubles every dear sweet day'; sip sip 'how are you today', 'I don't believe' she said;
'but i have nothing else better to do myself' I'd say...we're acute of mars and where we are across
enchantments and beyond the covering of the bridge and bridges...wifi sure if you like so very need; 'email leave it here' she's owner 'there's the pad' 'but what?' oh silly me 'do I get' fearing junk and praying for the hand signed invite to the 'Caffeine Ball' in the tiny little town with two chocolate shops just in case you are northern or southward bound, you're 'Cafe Casual' or 'Belgium Tweaked', she the owner tickled me 'you get my email'!!!

...here and there it is the season of the witch; and here today it's black tight city in the pretty country sweet nitty gritty; soccer so too the day and I don't know the preppy privates or the awesome lovey local blessed pirates; moms and girls all a twirl and I'm just trying to empty this lovely cup; this sweater too is dark and fairly long but upon the tights its out of sight but upon any other else it's something else; here is mom silver lovely flows as she too can bounce about as if she's the star ready to run and play kick in the winning goal, saves the day again again again, and the line is steep and the shop full of eye candy take home treats; and too tights sporting is she though jumper; guess they don't got to be so long in seasonal dark bold yet subtly nifty blackish white grey shifty plaids with tinging blue line-ish sky-ish snuck sneakin' in and out and oh the kicker so very dainty being in defiance like of gravity as in light and loosely sweet, and the lucky man for the ring upon the left of hand, but it's all lovely to see the happy be and the treats she seeks to take home to for about that lucky other and at times we are other me's but there this time he is he; and I've got 6 oz to go before my free pass to head of the class upon the tip of the spear nothing to fear before the all waiting for the dearest of sweet service the all so love here; nah no Starbucks come close to dare about anywhere the near blessed be here, we all so are; our bubble ya, or so I am most likely blaspheming here for true I can repeat I am overly needy speaking for myself and so overly shameless about my overly humanness at the risk of judgement and inhumanity; so it is better to know thyself first and foremost;

6 oz and I'm still working hard sip or gulp b/s or bust but then silver soccer plaid treat tweaker; there we are; "I love the plaid" said I, "Oh why well thank you so much" "That's lovely" I am not used to compliments" she seemed so...well I'd love to know, "I saw the ring" I said "and that should be no penalty"

...but I am never prepared for the overly shocking and we lost ourselves beyond our paths crossing and out beyond the door; I imagine we are, she is routin' team and life the more for all; 
once upon a time
 I was overly dedicated to the loosing cause with all endearment and flattery in every way first thing in the morning and like every night tag team between raising angels and in defiance of everything I have ever heard they say about what you just can't get with a man; but then they forget to tell you if it just so happens; there may be better men you can steal from and who cares what if from other women other husbands and their retirement plans; while we're at it I don't worry 'bout that but blessed be I ain't no Mr Right even though overly right for much right right now, though nearest my age I wouldn't then stand a chance to be fooled by sweet angels but who rarely just don't get a **** thing not 'bout me my deep and long term needs and cares, not that any couldn't but I ain't spelling out those tales here now so well;
but hit me it did that goddess blessed soccer mom-ma
not used to compliments ripping me up still
and forever till we get the heck out of
our b/s self created living hell
which repeat repeat
our simple choosing
in the more willing
and overly
responsive
here we are
in the better
place for heaven
ain't that true as well...

I wish I could ask is anything real
but it's all true as well,
if we ever got real out
of here this way

look out we'd might
just miss all the
HELL
'O'!!!

out of chocolate
out of women
out of friends
nothing like living in the moment
and it's like the end!!!

Then I'll be straight
Saying it is an illusion
or you are deluded
Not what I see
I know it seems hard to remember
all the agreed to agree things before
we were you's and I's there once only was
what there was...so we forget to remember the
fundamental of fundamentals but it's all in there somewhere
beyond consciousness our busy brains one day by and by we go on
anyway motion in motion still in motion with attachments and all those strings
inter-dependency things should ring a few and many more bells by more here as well
I just I just I know I know tossed upon such trips guided spells and I know I know its just
as easy to say ya know ya know hahaha I know ya know but ya want me to spell it out like it were abc and 123 but see and be they are not required here there or anywhere I care to be I know I know and have I fear fear I fear like have we been here before have we not tried that **** and it aint so pretty and i'm not getting the point.. the point the point not pointedly but blunty it scared one brave crazy super sweet 'n tough brotha to one long road on the dark dark night of not a lost soul but of a soul just I don't know more like a zombie no heart could not feel a thing abject terrorization upon the torture dejours in some kind of darkness a little glimmer in the nightmare long tunnel of despair but too good taboo for this you...my own kids did i see angels three suffered every slight from heaven to be here on what they call some other earth but still i know here is the better place for heaven...they too are partners all and ya it's been a long road but hahaha I'm a trillion type light years time distance dollars one of beings matters not I am I am and am way down this page and few have dared like me I just keep on daring and daring beyond it, they all for they, it what did I say ha forgive me this way...take a quick back to the top what I know and what did I say; well and the filters having to with Shaman Master J; He worked with special permissions and that is another day for much is such about this and there were times where wounds and illness were for reasons not brought upon by one self alone in the local life as it were; but then there were the many times where the healing was granted and the words of the Shaman Master 'your sins are forgiven'; so then this was noted and it was asked why is it not simpler to say you are healed and the Master replied 'it is simpler to show the cause and effect and your own power'; yes here now very loose semi quotations but what I know is you know by night and by day, in darkness and light; what is love and hate; you have perfect judgement; you know what is judgmentalness; consciousness is your smaller reality as is what we see by light what we see by heart; know by heart and mind is servant on and on; we have agreed to agree on in my seeing and feel oh way to much for we suffer all unnecessarily;
the holy grail is within each we are what
some would say would be that cup;
blessed be;
WAKE WAKE SHAKE IT UP!!!!