Before I met you
Everyone hated me
Suicidal thoughts
Taken over me

Forever alone
Reminded all day
In the worst ways
Everyone would call me
No one would care
Decide I don't matter
So then I met my BEST FRIENDS

When you think something, you can unthink it
When you hear something, you cannot unhear it

When you think something, it isn't true
When you hear something, it's easier to believe

When you think something, only you know
When you hear something, the whole world can judge you

because once you say something
it's in the world for forever

so just because you say "jk"
doesn't make it right

Because you never want to be
in a bullies sights

Once a day
7 days a week
365 days a year
Something goes wrong
In your life

It doesn't matter how small
Or how big it may seem
But at least 1 thing goes wrong
Nothing can redeem

You try and try
But never come up right

No matter how hard you try
One thing always goes wrong in your life

Whether you get into a fight with a friend
Or fail a test
Or get fired from your job
These things scale from 1 to 10

So don't give up hope
Bad things happen to us all
Remember this always
For the years to come

No one knows
The thoughts that run through my head
The urges I feel
To slit my skin

No one knows
The darkness I feel
It hangs over me
Just out of reach

No one knows
That I'm never "okay"
That the things I say
Are never what the seem

No one knows
The things I see
How amazing life isn't
What we see

nothing is like
How we perceive
We wish things to be different
But they never will be

I knew someone one day
and the next they were gone
no one knew where they went
they vanished like snow

snow melts on a warm day
and melts into the earth
my someone's personality
did just so

so now I sit here
wondering where you went
knowing that one day
it'll snow again

hopefully, you'll come back
when the snow falls again
because if snows around
then you're around
and there are no more fears

you make my day much better
distract me from my life
but just now I realized
that my someone is me
that someone is my happy side

so now that I know
that I can be alive
no more depression for me
my suicide will subside

I'll be happy once more
able to see with new eyes
the world in which I live in
will finally come alive.

Days turn into nights
Nights back to days
But sometimes you'll see
You didn't do anything

You notice how little
You do every day
And you start to wonder
To your dismay

Why haven't I done
What I'd dream I'd do
When I was younger
My thoughts went astray

But now they are back
And I want to explore
See the world again
See it once more

So live your life fully
Don't forget your childish dreams
Because one day you'll find
They're all you'll need

Hold on to those thoughts
Of your dreams as a child
Don't live half a life
Live one fully wild

Wild and free
As long as you know
Life half liven
You'll never know

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Sorry about the random updates, they(hopefully)will become more regular soon. I've had a lot on my hands, so please don't hate me!!

<3 Y'all!

Ashtyn