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  Oct 2017 Rylie Lucas
Lindsay
Finding a lover is effortless
for some people.
They only want a few things:
Someone attractive, kind,
funny or rich.

But
I desire
something so much deeper.

I want

an intelligent mind
that wakes up thoughts in me
I didn't realize were hibernating.

I want

to converse, analyze and debate
without being conscious of
the sun rising and falling
between our words.

I want

to make a witty remark
at a coffee shop
so he can reply sarcastically
just for me to jab back immediately
and for him to comeback back playfully
until we're both laughing
stomachs shaking
spit flying
the whole store staring
and we leave
without coffee

I want

our hands to stitch together
perfectly
like two lost puzzle pieces;
one found under a couch cushion
one found inside a junk drawer.
The rest of the puzzle has
already been thrown away
but
these two pieces remain
and they fit.

I want

to fall in love together
then together fall in love with
art, museums, songs, poems
T.V shows, radio jingles,
greek food, backroads,
our mutual hatred for pop culture,
doing the dishes (as long as he washes and I dry)
wrong turns, piled up laundry, life.
Just fall in love with life.

I want

to hurt with him

I want

to save the world with him

I want

to meet, see, understand
and experience all that is foreign
with him.

I think it will only take us meeting
and it'll only be history and happiness from then on.

It's just a matter of if a love like that could ever be
and if a love like that could ever be for me.
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
You don’t know I exist
So I talk to you
And the next thing I know
You’re stuck to me like glue
Wouldn’t stop texting me
Not able to leave me alone
And the crazy thing about it is
I don’t mind it at all
Having you by my side
Makes me feel so amazing
Like I could conquer the world
Like I could do anything
Unable to imagine
What life was like before
I’d walk over to you
And you’d be wide open, like a door
Loving you everyday
And knowing you love me too
Gives me so much confidence
And lets me see my life through
I actually talked to my crush! The butterflies won't leave me alone now!
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Feelings and emotions
Emotions and feelings
The hardest things to control in life
Something never ending
Especially when you’re a teenager
You don’t know how
You just sit there in silence
And wonder, “how?...
How did this happen?
And why can’t I control
The thoughts that come into my head
And none of my emotions at all?”
And it’s a question we all ponder
And never know
What the answer is
It’s like learning how to sew
In the beginning, you don’t know how
But in the end
You can sew with purpose now
And this is like emotions
Because at first, we can’t control ‘em
But after a while
We learn how to hold them in
And only let them out when needed
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
I’ve written about love
And I've experienced it, too
But nothing like
How I feel about you
Too shy to speak up
Too confident to not talk
Do you’re constantly at war
And never going to talk
Unless it’s in your group
You’ll stay silent
Too afraid of embarrassing yourself
But not wanting to be quiet
I love people who aren’t
Afraid to use their voice
And you aren’t
To a degree
In class, you’re someone different
That who you are with your friends
I know this because
My love for you has no end
When you think that I don’t like you
It makes my heart cry
Because you should never doubt what I tell you
Especially if it’s my feelings inside
So just know this, my love
I’ll be there for you always
Never forget that fact
And we’ll be together for forever and a day
I...am...so...bored
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Explicit


Seeing you on
Is like flipping a switch
You make me light up
When my days been a *****
Seeing you smile
Makes me smile
And then I think
And I think for a while
And I think of the times
We had together
And what we had
Pieced together
Lives planned
Promises promised
But then you moved
And I don’t know what happened
You saw other girls
You weren’t you
And I am still confused
About what happened to you
You were such a good person
Always kind, and thoughtful
But moving away from me
Turned you awful
You’d bully
You’d be mean
You’d even ignore me
And you still do not know
How much, to this day
Your words sit in my heart
And my soul withers away
You were my night and day
My story on a page
But now, you’re gone
And I don’t know what to do
Whats ******* wrong with me
What happened to my soul
I let you know things
No one else knows
And you don’t even care
That I cry myself to sleep
Thinking about the past
And what used to be you and me
So whatever you do
If you ever move away
Don't do this to your friends
And never, ever change
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
Staying somewhere
Is a luxury
Most people don’t understand
That their so lucky
Moving schools
Is like moving lives
Especially when you don’t stay somewhere
For more than a night
Never knowing
Where you’ll wake up tomorrow
Always drowning
In your sorrows
To stay somewhere
To not switch schools
Would be like asking for
10,000 jewels
It’s almost impossible
For you to think
Of a life
Where you don’t wonder
Each night
If you’ll be here tomorrow
Or be somewhere new
Trying to fit in
But always “the new girl”
For my step-brother, who's, for the first time ever, staying in the same school for 2 years in a row
Rylie Lucas Oct 2017
This, is not about butterflies
It’s the feeling you get
That feels like butterflies
But is actually just
Yourself fading
Yourself wishing
Yourself dreaming
Wanting, but not having
Having, but not wanting
Imagining yourself
With someone new
Wanting something
That you cannot explain
Needing something
That shouldn’t be needed
But is
For some reason
That rush of adrenaline
That happens when you’re near
The one that you love
The one you hold dear
But not someone you treat like family
Someone, instead
You’d like to start a family with
Gut taking over
The butterflies still there
Wanting to go near
But wouldn’t ever dare
Don’t wanna sever that line
Between real and fantasy
But needing that feeling
Of happiness and life
That is what they do to you
Take you
And revive you
They let you feel emotion
And let you live like normal
Instead of being a shell
And having no thoughts at all
You’re left wondering
If you should say hi
Or if your butterflies
Would ever let you slip by
Because no matter what happens
You’ll always protect them
You’ll always want them
You’ll always need them
Comment if you've ever felt this way
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