Sitting beneath a starry night
I reflect on the fire of my life
Cold beer don't quench my thirst
So I'll settle for being thirsty
because once you stop wondering
you stop wanting
And when you stop wanting
you just stop
and life just ain't worthy
So while I know the things I desire
what I seek is a goal
I just may never meet
Not meeting it doesn't mean I won't succeed in it
Just means I don't ever plan to put out the fire

Often times I feel disconnected to reality,
Like I am there physically
But mentally I am not.
I am fully aware of my surrounding,
I am fully aware of people passing by,
It just feels like a complete blur.
Sometimes, people talk to me,
I listen,
But my mind wanders somewhere else.

There’s a third space
That’s not quite here
Yet not quite there.
It’s a dark place
With no clear light
Other than the fireflies
That hover close listening,
To our quiet whispers
To our quick mumbling
And to the declarations.
There’s a slight drizzle,
But I don’t mind,
Because your voice is
      My umbrella
      My blanket
      My everything.
Close my eyes, listening
To the muffled backg­round,
It makes me think
I’m there with you.
But not quite there –
In a third         space,
With you beside me.
I don’t hangup first
Because I want to
Listen for your guard
As it falls         away
Some where in         that

                 Third space.

I emptied myself to make room for more beauty
More loveliness and grace
More feminine glow and fragile perfection
And tight skin over protruding bones
But I lost all my kindness
And my compassion
I emptied my sympathy for others
And now I'm full of rosy allure but not much else.

Tell the ones you Love, that you Love them today, because life can slip to quickly away
Take to time to spend time with family and friends
Today cherish every moment
Today appreciate them for the rare treasure that they are.

I'm writing this letter,
I'm writing it because I'm sad,
I'm writing it because I'm going mad,
I'm writing it because I want to get better,

Do you remember when we met,
My dad was in huge dept,
I couldn't eat at home anymore,
So I went to the radio and we met right next to that door,

Do you remember falling for me,
Because I remember falling for you,
I remember thinking that I should flee,
Before we'd start sticking together like glue,

Do you remember eating pizza,
Because you failed to cook a frozen meal,
That night I remember your shirt was teal,
And the way you called slowly my name: 'Alexia'

Do you remember our first kiss,
That moment full of bliss,
Do you remember feeling the spark,
When the sky became more and more dark,

Do you remember when you woke up next to me one morning,
Without even a single warning,
The first thing you told me was that I was beautiful,
In that moment I felt doubtful,

Do you remember telling me that I shouldn't doubt what you say,
But the very next day,
We started to lose touch,
You should know I miss you very much,  

I tried speaking to you since,
But you never reply,
Maybe I should see the evidence,
But how can I?

How can I when I miss you terribly?
How can I when you always occupy my thoughts?
How can I when I desire so badly a reply?
How can I when I always see our common friends?
How can I when I don't want to see the end?
How can I when I still love you?

How can I when I keep wondering about the answer to the question,
'What do you think of me'
Even if I know the answer is
'I don't'

I know I wasn't allowed to fall in love with you,
But how could I not,
When your charm,
Was constantly operating on me?

Please reply to this letter,
It's the least you could do,
Please reply to this letter,
Even if you don't want to,
Please reply to this letter,
Since you won't reply to anything else.