it's this addiction that's hurting me
when I know what I want
and I can't even stop myself from
succumbing to my own twisted reality.

I'm looking for a savior
to pull me out of this eternal tunnel
and they'll say that I'm settling
and they'll say I can do better
there must be something wrong with me,
a cloud that partially blinds me,
because I just don't see it that way.

maybe I don't want a soulmate
someone I'll wear to the bone
with false promises of devotion.

maybe I'm looking for a slave
someone who will never leave me
with the hopeless desires I hold captive.

this addiction destroys all comfort
all sense of security
and removes any conscious thoughts
that I believed I still possessed.

I wish I could say
I wasn't obsessed
but my life is too old to be mine
wither and worn, each day feels
like I've already lived it
years and years ago

this body of mine
like a shell made of wire
a sheet of remiss
over indifferent bliss

I can notice the blood
running from his lips
he was biting his tongue
for the silent dismiss

and I'll stay asleep until I dream of you
or until you decide to
speak to me like you used to
I don't want to lose you
so I'll stay asleep until reality bends
and we'll make amends
among the clouds

I'll blame myself repeatedly
until you show me how to be
more like you
I'd like to be more like you

I'll hate myself for things I've done
but baby, believe me
you are the only one
the only one

I'll force myself to sleep all day
until the pain goes away
the sun and the moon interchange
not really, for me, it's all the same
everyday, everything's all the same
you made me complete
I tore us apart
I'll slip into darkness to fight my heart.