I am tired of dreaming you next to me.

You were love uncompromised, unadulterated,
You were the purest expression of the drug,
Before I tasted death on my tongue,
And before my heart learned despair,
Before inhibitions and walls were erected
Making love a feat as difficult as trying to go a day without flashbacks of us holding each other as if nothing else had ever made more sense than this moment right here

in the trust on sports a breach
a void on the pitch
passes away a flower in full bloom

on the gentle game hangs a gloom.

i've had wild turkey-
kinda gamey
but it'll do in a rush

i've had jim beam, too
along with a little kush

but- jack daniels kicked my ***
and knocked me on my ****


this thanksgiving
i'm going with plain old turkey
cuz i'm smarter and braver

if god will only grant me the serenity.

11/27/14

I miss the scent of you.
I miss the feel of you
I miss being held by you
I miss and
I ache for all of you

You, my heart's desire
Can't have you no more

You, my body requires
Can't hold you no more

I want you
I need you
Can't endure this pain
Don't know how to accept that
You just won't have me
No
Won't have me no more...

In my dreams you come to
In my dreams you want to
In my dreams you have me
Over and over again

I miss the scent of you.
I miss the feel of you
I miss being held by you
I miss all of you
More than I can tell....

In my dreams you come
Back to me
In my dreams you want me
In my dreams you have me
more and more and more