These tears won't stop coming
It's been days and days
I'm drowning
My carpet is wet
The bed is soaked
My eyes are red
Not much can be said
For this sad state I'm in
And yes that's a pun
For I am very sad
Very sad, indeed.

I'm stranded alone
In this strange place I called home
No longer familiar
As still as a stone
But, I need to roam
To the place I feel at home
With you and the others
Not here by myself.

Waking up the morning after
Not a Sunday
But, a Wednesday
Waking up the morning after
My baby leaves
Waking up with a hangover
From love
Take away the headaches
No getting sick
Add the tears
And add the sadness, dear
There's no pill to swallow
So, just sit and wallow
And try to get through
Cling to the memories
That have been shared over time
The wonderful memories
That bring tears to your eyes
Trying to function is less than easy
Trying to keep going knowing you're so far
It's less than easy

Walking through life
Knowing
The straight way
Ahead
Like a blade
Straight and sharp
Cutting down the path
Bumps may come
But overcame
Every bump I passed
Continue
The path I see
The end is clear
Until a foggy haze appeared
Now wandering I find
Myself
I don't know where to go
I walk and I walk
Going everywhere
And Seeing nothing
This foggy haze
It stays
Searching and searching
For a break
Then I get it
I'm staring down a cliff.

This familiar feeling
Upon the leave of my love
The tears and sadness well
So many tears have already fell
On your t-shirt staining the white
I still cry with you holding me tight
Then when I look in your eyes
I can't help but crack a smile
because I know
And you know

Out at your car
Waiting for you to leave
Stalling with words
Nearly an hour goes passed
A series of hugs and of kisses
The first step is to get in your car
How I wish I were coming with you
Tears well up inside
Then I look at you
I can't help but to crack a smile
Because I know
And you know
You'll be coming again.

The days that you are near
I can't think of anything better
Laying in my bed
Two lovers, best friends we are
Dreaming of the day
When you never have to leave
Enjoying, living for the moment
Staring into your eyes
You say the only words needed to be said
"I love you"
Whispered in my ear
"I love you, too"
Whispered back to you
We can't help but smile
Those ***** smiles of those in love
Because we are
Hopelessly, madly in love
And we'd have it no other way
Touches, kisses, words, and looks
With every one, my breath you took
Heart to heart and mind to mind
If only it could be all the time
But, we love and we care
And I would have it no other way.

A ray of light, shining bright
On my windowsill
Late at night
How? You ask
Could this be so?
The moon, the sun
The stars shining in the sky
Do not compare to the shine in your eyes
Lighting our way
Can't you see?
Clearly we are truly meant to be
Nothing compares to your eyes and mine
When beheld is each other
Only seeing one another
Shining so bright
Envy held in the stars at night
Even the sun hasn't seen this bright of a sight
As dark as it may be
Light left to find in our eyes
I find yours and you find mine
All we need are each others' eyes.

Just a little neighborhood
No Wisteria Lane
But, everyone has their secrets
For they cannot abstain
From the behavior that they know
All of that is understood
Now I shall paint the pictures
The Portraits of the Neighborhood.

First we have a lovely lady
She is lovely indeed
Too lovely for her very own good
The word "no" she does not know
Night after night climbing out the window
Parents in bed, as daft as the dead
Climbing in a car, skirt pulled high
Sitting in the backseat, getting high as the sky
A car full of boys
She's as ecstatic as can be
If she only could know, she's only a toy
Each takes their turn
Tossing her like a rag doll
Finishing inside then it's on to the next one
Dropping her off at home
Telling her to get out of the car
Readjusting her skirt
Back through the window she goes.

Peeking through the window
The next picture painted
The pervy next door neighbor
Always looking to score
The things he has done
Not proud of them, he says
For he has done terrible things
Just sit back and read
Watching through the window
Holding himself in his hand
Wife sleeping in bed
As good as dead
To him because he doesn't see
The love that she brings to him
Only the meat
That she's grown on her bones
Since their wedding day alone
The *** is lack luster
He needs someone else
So he calls on the hookers
And neighborhood hoes
Seeing the girl in the too short skirt
Now he's made a mess on the window
Time to clean up.

Now across the street there
It's an interesting affair
A seemingly loving couple
Blue skies, no rain
She gardens, he works
She cooks, he works
Always greeted with a kiss
Smiles all the time
But, they have a secret
Like everyone else
Behind close doors
He isn't Mr. Nice Guy
The cuts and the bruises
They come from somewhere
She covers them up so no one will stare
She says it will stop
Just give it some time
But one of these days
He'll get carried away
Sensing no danger
This silly young woman
Hangs around town
To be beaten again.

The last and final portrait
This middle aged woman
Beautiful and kind
Everyone loves her
Including a boy
A mere 15 years old
Stops by her home
Everyday after school
She's giving him lessons
But, everyone knows better
A steamy affair
She can sense the danger
But, the thrill it gives
She cannot stop
Everyday he walks in
A locked door behind him
Window blinds closed
The secret well hidden
He kisses and rubs
She does the same
Till they're both in heaven
Away from the pain
He leaves in an hour
Sometimes a little more
She waves from the door
Until tomorrow, there'll be more.

I've painted my picture
Brief as it may be
Every neighbor has their secrets
Whether young or old
What lies writhe behind closed doors
Soon to escape
For now just wait.

Do you ever just wonder
Why you are the way you are
I wonder every day
Why I do what I do
Why I am what I am
Why I lack what I lack
Why I have what I have
One answer
Plain and clear
Why I am who I am
Is because
You are who you are.

Feeling this way for days and days
I'm scared
Why won't it go away?
Has the sickness set in?
Finally, it's time to pay
For all my little indiscretions
For all the lies and all the times
For another day, I say
Why won't this go away?
The pills they bring just slight relieve
Am I too far gone to ease the pain?
Shivers and sweat run down my spine
This sickness is no ordinary kind
What can they tell me?
What will they say?
My very worst nightmare
I've tried to wish away
It's caught up with me today
The sorrows and the pain
Of today and yesterdays since passed
Hopefully this won't last
Cold sweats in bed
Shivers under my blanket
Someone come help before I am dead
For days and days
I am terrified
Why won't this go away?

Looking out the window pane
The sky crying, "it's all the same"
Tears of life
Showing you're alive
Tap at the window, the tears of the sky
Crying for you and I
Sky sees all and does not like
The pain and the misery cause by all
It cries and cries hoping to see
Some kind of difference, waiting futilely
Hoping to wash away
The pains of yesterday
The ignorance of today
Instead it seems
Tears are to spread around
What is meant to be gone
"Look up and see my pain for you"
The sky pleads day after day
Left on deaf ears
The sky cries more
The sky sees all
The killing and the pain
The wrongdoings and the cheating
"Look up and see, for killing there is no need"
Blind eyes can't see
Falls on deaf ears, the sky's desperate pleas.

Light of day breaks
Weary bones
Slowly begin to move
Dreary mind
Gears begin to turn
Another day
Just another day
Missing what's coming
Seeing what's going
Looking back
Remembering the pain
Forgetting to look forward
Missing everything coming
Seeing everything that's leaving
One track mind
Focused on the wrong
Turn around to face the day
Not looking back on the night
Looking to tomorrow
Vision is a gift
Life is the same
Set sights to life and take off
Weary bones get moving
Dreary mind is cleansed by the sun
Warm rays showing hope
It's (not) just another day
Set your sights to life

Hour long phone calls
Up late at night
Trying hard to find
An answer in sight
Seeking the warmth
Another to adore
But, never will try
For they will always have love
Together they'll try
The rules, they'll defy
Day by day
Waiting and waiting
For an end in sight
To all this craziness, right
Late night dreams
And day time tears
Ears to listen
Hands want to hold
But, not near enough
So the phone it does rest
Upon my chest
Hoping my heartbeat you'll hear
Though you aren't near
These hour long calls
I'm hearing you now
As I hold back the tears
Because we are not near

In life's stillness
So sweet in silent repose
A breath of fresh air
Renewing and filling your lungs
Eyes of full sight
Seeing that all is alright
Enjoying the joys of the day
Sighing the stress away
Take a breath in and wait
It'll be okay
In this moment of serenity
The moment so still and stagnate
But, not stuck
Just paused, soon to move on
A night by the fire
Morning in the sun
Reading in your bed
A bath to clear your head
The moments are still
Ceasing for a moment
In life's sweet repose

It's never goodbye
Always see you later
Though my body is far
My mind is nearer
Than the air you are breathing
I'm with you there sleeping
Always remember
Never forget
The time that we've spent
Together again
Soon we will be
So don't you dare fret
The going gets tough
We've always had it a bit rough
Roll with the punches
And play with cards that are dealt
With a bond such as ours
We will always prevail
Over the hardships and toils
Our blood, it will boil
Tiffs and spats will be had
But, we'll never stay mad
It's been fun and will remain
Joyous all the same
Cuz it's never goodbye
Just see you later

Love is languages
Spoken at once together
Neither this nor that

But both.

Seeping through the cracks
Of all the tragedies since passed
You will find me there
Not knowing when or where
Curled up beside myself
Reaching for that thing on the shelf
Of which I cannot remember
The mind is weak and tender
See your silhouette in shadow
My breathing quick and shallow
Seeping through the cracks you see
Oh this very broken me
Lying across the room so bare
Wishing I just wouldn't care
My body twisted, naked on the floor
Too bad you can't find the door
My eyes they wander towards you there
Not feeling anything but scared
I see the silhouette is gone
I fear my last breath I have drawn
But, then with such a deafening sound
I feel something hit the ground
My eyes grow small in the bright white light
And I can't believe the sight
You come to carry me away
Now I'll see the light of day
You pick me up and hold me tightly
Until my spirit begins to burn brightly
My feet are weak but, they carry me
With you by my side, now a we
Lifting me up with open arms
Making me smile with your charm
Seeping through the cracks you'll no longer find
The girl who was laying there blind

Protection is what I have yearned
And protection is what I have found
By these four walls
No longer am I bound.

Comfort seeming so distant
No longer am I in discontent
Day and day so insistent
For me, you have been sent.

Be the gun at my side
And I'll be the trigger
No longer shall I hide
No reasons left to shake and shiver

Protection is what I've yearned
And I've found it in you
For reasons anyone can discern
I'm proud to call you my boo.

Thick as thieves and close as can be
You shield me from the obscene
Stitch my wounds when I am hit
Protection is what I've yearned
And I have found it in you.

The moments fleeting away
Opportunities sinking
Down to the bottom of life
Drinking the ruins of love
Into the gullet of luck
Pouring down the surface
Bubbling over the cracks
Given by so many in the past
Seeping into the skin of the reckless
Making peace if only for this instance
Bringing happiness to the endowed
If only for this moment
The world was truly round
Things were known in this world
Everything was found
Ignorance ceased
Higher truth the deeper it went
Never to forget
Deserving of another
Deserved of nothing
Forgotten truths and hidden lies
Seeing this moment for the first time
Molding the cracks of hurts since passed
Repairing the scratches of self destruction at last
The moments swirling in time
Opportunities forever more lay in hand
Giving peace to those who can

Through the world we've traveled more
Than the furthest shooting star
Not in distance as you would say
Just think metaphorically, per say
We shot of like a space rocket
Blasting through all that sky in no time
But, then we stopped to catch our breath
Rocket fuel had been all gone
We were left wondering what went wrong.

Standing in front of this mirror
Stripped down, bare, to my soul
Looking at my body
Seeing into myself
What was once ugly
Now undergoing metamorphosis
An ugly duckling
Now a beautiful swan
Once a lowly caterpillar
Now a butterfly spreading it's wings for the first time
Such enlightenment
Seeing yourself for the first time
Forgiving yourself for the first time
The start of being yourself
Taking off the mask that has hidden your beautiful face
And you know it's beautiful
Realize yourself and be happy

All the Burning truths
All the burning lies
Which ones do you hide behind?

Its leaving time
Time to walk into those four walls
Strip down and climb into bed
I wonder
Is this what you do?

Lay in bed and turn to my side
Staring at the wall
But, all I see is you
Your eyes staring back at me
Smiling
Reminding me that you're near.

Hugging my pillow
But, all I feel is you
The warmth from your skin
The rise and fall of your chest
Our legs intertwined
Comfort redefined.

I hear the fan blowing
Over the sound of your breathing
Who would have thought I'd come to like the sound
Of snoring so loud?

I can't help but to wonder
Is this what you do?
The helpless longing for my love
Just to be here again.

Like a caged bird
I stare out the window
Wishing for more
All I can do with this sore
Scratching the itch again and again
Infection seeps in and feeds
Off this soul that is no longer
Suffocating me
Struggling to breathe
Just wanting to be free
From this pain
All this negativity
It suffocates my brain
What once used to pleasure
Now a chore
Here with myself
Suffocating more
Or is it someone else's hands around my neck
Choking the life from this being
Breath after breath
My soul is gasping
Suffocating from the pain
Shallow breath and cold sweat
Fear no longer this death
Welcomed messenger
Bringing me news of salvation

A single tear falls
Just one
From someone who could have had it hall
A single tear is shed
Just one drop
From the eye of the woman
Who didn't come out on top
Just one tear from the eye
Of the guy who thinks he's too strong
Too strong to cry
Hide the weakness and dry your eye
He's afraid inside
Strip down the walls and bare your soul
Afraid of the world
You know its oh so cold
A tear that fell
What happened to the rest?
They're just bottled inside
Never laid to rest
Sadness festering
Turning to anger in your chest
Boiling and burning anger
Deep inside yourself
Never leaving you alone
Triggered
The hell begins
And you just bottle it up again
A single tear falls
Let it fall again
Let one turn to two
And two turn to three
You don't want to turn out like me.

Dear me
This is my apology
For being who I am today
For being everything
I'm not meant to be

Dear you
I'm sorry that I can't fulfill
The shoes laid out for me to fill
They're just to big to fit my feet
At least for right now.

Dear me
Please hang on to me
Don't let me go just yet
There's still so much to do
Don't cry for me
I'm sorry.

Dear you
Just leave me alone
Can't you see I'm all alone
Its so hard traveling the world by your lonesome
Just let me live
Please have some mercy
Open your eyes and see the pain I'm in.

Dear me
Please stop the pain that I've been feeling
I can't handle
I'm not dealing
I'm not getting on so well these days.

Dear you
I know you try
I know you cry
But, look at me
You think I'm so naive
That's why I'm writhing in misery
That's why I stay silent
And cry.

Dear me
Salvation could be coming soon
So try and hold up your head
I know its easier said
But, try
For me.

Dear me
This is my apology
For being who I am today
For being everything
I'm not meant to be

Dear you
I'm sorry that I can't fulfill
The shoes laid out for me to fill
They're just to big to fit my feet
At least for right now.

Dear me
Please hang on to me
Don't let me go just yet
There's still so much to do
Don't cry for me
I'm sorry.

Dear you
Just leave me alone
Can't you see I'm all alone
Its so hard traveling the world by your lonesome
Just let me live
Please have some mercy
Open your eyes and see the pain I'm in.

Dear me
Please stop the pain that I've been feeling
I can't handle
I'm not dealing
I'm not getting on so well these days.

Dear you
I know you try
I know you cry
But, look at me
You think I'm so naive
That's why I'm writhing in misery
That's why I stay silent
And cry.

Dear me
Salvation could be coming soon
So try and hold up your head
I know its easier said
But, try
For me.

Screams from the past
They aren't really from the past
Are they?
Screams from the past
Just screaming out now
Screams of the present
To the future
A scream is a scream
I'm screaming now.

Music to me
Only comparable to
Oxygen for you
My love
My life
My every breath
Every thought could not exist
If not for my music
Hear it
See it
Feel it
Course through my body
Like blood through your veins
Let it take me away
To a far away place
Only music can
When my heart is racing
And I cannot breathe
It is Music who can save me
To Music, I thank thee
For everything you've done
For saving me
I'd be out on the streets
A lost cause
With nothing to believe
Drugs by day
******* by night
With  no hope in sight
To my Savior
My Salvation
I thank thee
For saving me.

I love this man
I want the whole world to know
About me and my man
About our love that has grown
Into something so sweet.
I love this man
And I ain't afraid to show it
Oh, yes, its true
I want everyone to know it
And I just wanna...aw ****
I guess the cat is outta the bag
I just love this man.

Oh, man, there's this girl
And ya know...she rocks my world
I hate to sound so cliche
But, its so true
I'm in love with you
...I mean her, man
Wanna spend as much time as I can
Just layin in her arms
I'm fallin for every charm
She's got her fingers
Wrapped right around my heart
And I love this girl.

I love this man.

I love this girl.

I love you.

I love you.

Life/Love is like a dream
Flying up high in the sky
Never to come down.

When he looks at me
I can see the change within his eyes
A tenderness that no one can deny
When he utters those words
I can hear it in his voice.

When he looks at me
Its like he sees my every move
And I know there's nothing I have to prove
When he kisses my lips
I can feel it in his kiss.

When he looks at me
Now this only sometimes
There's a hunger inside his eyes
That only I can satisfy
But, that's only sometimes.

I can see it in his eyes
When they light up at my sight
I can feel it in his kiss
So tender and so swift
I can hear it in his voice
When he utters those few words
"I love you, babe"
And that's when I know that it is true.

And, baby, I love you, too.

You can try to change empty words
Into promises of other worlds
But, your efforts are futile.

The devil
He's the first card drawn
Evil grin with servants serving him
They could break free of their chains
Only held by mentality
Time to break free
Of this reality.

Next the star
But, look at that
I guess I'll be reading it upside down
Flipped on its head that is what it said
Spiritually speaking you're confused
You don't know the rules
Of the game you're playing
So you just lost hope
Day to day seems mundane
Everything is always the same
Dwelling on the negative
Ignoring the positive
The star is saying
Just open your eyes.

Oh hello, Mr. Magician
I see you've joined the gang
You've come to tell me about my day to day
Lost touch of reality
Feet aren't on the ground
Tell me Mr. Magic man, how can I get down?
You're confused and you're lonely
Just listen to The Star
Open your eyes and see who you are.

Now it is explained, Mr. Magic
Now as I'm wielding this three of swords
Rejection and loss
Things ever present in your life
And to fill your future with strife
So this is a warning
Please beware
That danger is lurking
So tread with care
But, do not shy away, I say
Learn to live and love the day to day pain
Keep in touch with it
Before the sun comes the rain.

A young man is next
The Page of Cups
I'm sorry for your bad luck
For it is flipped on its side
Check your addictions
You might want to have a look
Don't let this person hurt you
Whether it be you or another
Insecure and abusive
Don't give him too much
For he wants much and gives none
Just seek who it is
We're just about done.

What a fitting end
The last card reads "Death"
Lucky for you
The meaning is reversed
With that being said
Please don't think you're cursed
This means transformation, a rebirth
Major change is near and dear
So please, do not fear
Let go of the past
Let it linger no longer
Let go of your hurt
Fill it with desire
Accept the change that is beside you
And no longer will you feel like you're stuck.

I hope I have helped
With this reading I've prepared
Each card holding relevance
Don't believe?
Turn the other cheek, if you dare.

I know your habits
I know your ways
I could map out your life
For days and days.

That's why I sit here
Watching our show
You know which one
Two shows right in a row.

The one from the one night
You know the one, right?
How could you forget
It was your favorite yet.

So I sit and I watch
Wondering if you are, too
It wasn't too long ago
But, things change...they do.

Are we laughing at the same jokes?
Watching the same show?
We could be and I hope
Now I laugh and sigh
Oh my...

What do you take for granted?

The illiterate
Unable to read
Unable to write
Communication is dead

What do you take for granted?

The blind
Unable to see the world around
Seeing beauty inside
But, never out.

What do you take for granted?

The deaf
Music is gone
Voices are nothing
Never knowing sound

What do you take for granted?

The mute
A voice that is lost
No singing that song
Vocal expression...gone

What do you take for granted?

The roof over your head
Shelter from the rain
A place to lay your head
Shelter from the pain

What do you take for granted?

Loved ones
The ones there for you
Helping you through
Without...you are alone

What do you take for granted?

The beauty of life
Everything.

What do you take for granted?

The illiterate
Unable to read
Unable to write
Communication is dead

What do you take for granted?

The blind
Unable to see the world around
Seeing beauty inside
But, never out.

What do you take for granted?

The deaf
Music is gone
Voices are nothing
Never knowing sound

What do you take for granted?

The mute
A voice that is lost
No singing that song
Vocal expression...gone

What do you take for granted?

The roof over your head
Shelter from the rain
A place to lay your head
Shelter from the pain

What do you take for granted?

Loved ones
The ones there for you
Helping you through
Without...you are alone

What do you take for granted?

The beauty of life
Everything.

What terror is held in this
Rejection at its finest
Being the one to reject
Or be rejected
Which is worse?
Having hopes and dreams crushed
Or having to crush them
The latter I say
One can be crushed and moved on
One crushes and forever wonders.

I hear every whisper you make
Every breath you take
Lying there in your bed
Miles away.
I hear every request you make
Every whisper that escapes your lips

I hear every sound
You don't hear me screaming
How is that possible?
You must be deaf.

Filled with love
Consumed by hate
This is why I can't think straight.

Do I just blame it on ***?
Why I'm feeling all this stress
Why these tears stain my eyes
Why I lay on my bed and cry
Or is it something more
Something deep down within my core
Something following me in my life
Causing me all this strife
Is the anxiety for nothing?
The things inside the dark of my room
Making me feel gloom and doom
Whispering in my ear
"Just come with us, dear."
Listen to them, I will not
With them, I will not rot
Seeing death night by night
Can give someone an awful fright
Should I remain in fear of these apparitions?
Or should I ignore the superstitions?
Are they only in my head?
Just monsters under my bed?
Imagination of a young child
Temperament meek and mild
Shadows becoming figures in my head
The tears begin to shed
Fear faces me in every room
Please tell me I'll be leaving soon.

Stillness in the air
Just the sound of your breath breathing next to mine
The soundtrack of the mind
In that moment...
In that moment, I knew we were infinite
In that dingy parking lot
City lights dimly lit
Sky clouded over with the haze we once had
Now clear and bright
In that moment, I knew we were infinite
In that moment, we kissed
In that kiss, lying just within
I knew we were infinite
Just then, not too long ago
I knew we were infinite
My ear to your beating heart
Like a sea shell...listening to my own heart
Beat by beat, as it were
In that moment, I knew we were infinite
Not just for that moment
Not just for tonight but, for life
In this moment...
In this moment, I know we are infinite.

Shallow, quick breaths
Cold sweat drips from the brow
The four walls are a cage
And I'm never let out.

I can run but, it always finds me
Hunts me down until I can't run anymore
Corners me in this room
It is predator
I am prey.

Haven't felt safe in years
Not outside forces but, within
Fear has grown and grown
Longing to feel comfort once again.

Days of smiles are long since gone
Tears seem here to stay
Hazy sadness and crazy days
When will it go away?

A love without logic
A dangerous thing
But, when done correctly
Beauty, it could bring.

When one ignores logic
Do they have a brain?
Forget about her
All she did was bring you pain.

The pain of the past
It makes us fear the rest
Some are different than those
Some will only give you the best.

She will if you let her
Give you all of her world
For she has little to live for
A new life, you unfurl.

She'll be the bullet to your gun
She'll be the sword to your shield
She'll give you everything and more
But, not when you yield...

Young and in love
Just all shaken up
What happened to love?
What happened to us?

Rekindled flame
Red embers burning bright
No longer stagnate
Red embers of soul
Burning through
Showing to those who couldn't see
Never again
Make the blind see when the mute speaks
Make the deaf hear
Make the ignorant learn the words the mute speaks
No longer silent screams waiting in futility to be heard
The blind shall see the embers of soul
Speak on deafened ears no more
The mute speaks
False hope no more
Following for happiness no more
The mute speaks
Ramblings
on..
on..
and on..
The day the mute speaks
Listen
For there is much to say
Much to hear
Much to see
The day the mute speaks
Is the day the deaf hear and the blind see
The embers of soul burning bright within
All thanks to rekindled flame
Speak, Mute
Speak

When all those fairy tales go away
What else will there be left to say
No more lie wrought "I love you"'s
Just us two, left to sing the blues.

What happened to the old days
When the mere sight took your breath away
What I thought I'd never lose
Now a broken heart must be soothed.

If only we could have chosen
Two hearts remain unbroken
Now this bed is like a trap
Though so close, between us is a gap.

What we had was beautiful
How could we make it work, so dysfunctional
Now you've chosen
One heart remains unbroken.

Oh, little birdie, all dressed in white
Tap on my window tonight
For its your love I need
Come to my window, steal me away, I plead
This life is stale, what lies in store?
I feel desire burn down to my core
For more than this life, for more...

Little bird in white
Turning away from my window tonight.

Coming home,
I thought it'd be different this time
No more bedtime cries late at night
Lonely days be gone
I thought they were
Maybe its just that expectations are skewed.

You have your life
Do you know you have mine?
Without you, and numbed mind
I sit and I write
I sit and I cry
I sit and I stare at the walls until I die.

Boredom it is called
Ordinary form, it is not
Not with these memories on the walls
Intricate frames, look into the image
Watch as it plays scenes of the past
Each wall is covered
You'll be entertained for hours.

Hours and hours go by
Three months time
One question remains
Will I make it alive?

Dear Mother...


Dear Father...


Dear Husband...

Dear Friend...

These are the letters I'll never send.


My love, this is how I feel...
Why...?
How could you...?
This is the end...
Letters I'll never send.

Everyone has them
You know you do
The deepest thoughts
Vibrating deep within needing escape
These are letters never sent.

Erased
Ripped
Deleted
Never read again
Never sent.

Dear Mother...
Dear Father...
Dear Husband...
Dear Friend...





I just hit send.

If I could travel through time
Like a melody lost in the wind
I would travel the world
Seeing the sights that most only dream of
I would see it all
But, it'd be nothing
Without you.

If I could travel through time
Like a melody lost in the wind
I would find my way back home...
Back home to you
Back home where my heart resides
Safe in yours.

If I could travel through time
Like a melody lost in the wind
I would set my sights to happiness
And fly to you, love
If I could...I would.

Writing ad lib, thinking of  you
Trying to find the right words
To tell how much I'm missing you
Trying to find what to do
To lessen the pain of missing you.

Is there anything else I can do
But sit here and write?
Is there anything else I can say
Except that simple three word phrase?
Oh, my love, please know it is true
I love you and I miss you.

Counting days, how long has it been?
I'll be by your side and you by mine
Soon, love, soon
I'll see your handsome face, your lovely smile
And you'll see mine, dear
You'll see mine.

Life is short lived
So is our time
But soon, dear, I'll see your eyes
And you'll soon see mine
With all of this in mind
Believe me, darling, when I say
I love you
and
I miss you.