How terrible it is
That I have come to the point
That to love you I must
Let you go.

I told you from the start
Not to fall for me.
Because
I know what
My heart does.

Now look
What we've
Become.

I traced your body
The day I left you.

From your brows
To your hips
To just before your toes.

I felt the way
You move with me
And then I sent you home.

Oh how I torture
Myself.

Please don't let me
Let you go.

And I fell so fast
It was so simple
And sweet.

How much harder it is
To lose a love like that
Than to simply
Let it go.

Oh baby
You are beautiful
Baby
Baby
So, so beautiful
Don't you worry
Baby
Baby
Don't you worry
How you look.

I close my eyes
And allow myself
To dream

Of all the chances I had
To kiss you.

Baseball seats
And
Late night treats

And dancing till the credits were through

And every moment with you.

I failed.
I failed you.
And no words
Will take back
The ones I said.

I just want to apologize
And gather you up
And hold you close
And brush my fingers
Through your hair.

But I lost that privilege
When I acted a coward
And put all of my faults
On you.

Ever since
We started falling
I was never fair
To you.

And you loved me so purely
And you cared so deeply
And you did everything right
And good.

But I loved selfishly
And I didn't treat you
In the way you deserve.
I treated you in a way
That I was not proud of
That I am not proud of
I'm ashamed.

Then I poured all the fault on you.
I failed you.
I failed myself.
And I am no good for you.

And the sun's no longer
Shining.

And the sky's a
Milky blue.

My head is all a clutter.
I can't make out a thing.
It's as if my mind and my emotions
Are always arguing.

I cannot find the words to say,
The ones to set things right.
The English language
Falls away
And leaves me with
"We might."

We might succeed
We might work out
We just might carry on.
But deep inside
The words that occupy me are:
"You're wrong."

My mind is like a battlefield.
With loud,
And fight,
And anger.

Oh please do not disrupt me.
With fear,
You'll be
In danger.

Please forgive me.
For it appears that my emotions have
Spilled from my eyes again.

I'm just
so
tired.

Sometimes people
Come into your life,
Tear your heart apart,
And leave.

And well,
That just really *****
Now doesn't it.

I dream of that day
That I rested in your arms.

My lips on the nape of your neck.
My fingertips on your collarbone.
My heart in your hands.

Sometimes moments
Don't need to last forever
In order to stay
For a lifetime.

You'll always be
A part of me.
And I you.

She wears his clothes now,
His shirt drapes down her shoulders.
Says she'll never change.

But nothing
Ever happened
With all of that
Desire.

It never came to light,
But it didn't sputter out.
It simply continued living.

Growing like a flower.
Spreading like a ****.

Lovely and beautiful
And absolutely pointless.
A bouquet of
Good-for-nothings.
A mental
Forget-me-not.

My body is craving
Someone to
Forget.

I need
Your movements
To match
With mine
Once more.

I've learned so much from you.

I've learned that I can fall in love repeatedly.
With your eyes
With you lips
With your smile
With your laugh.
I can fall in love however I want.
Because this love
Is mine.

You will always be
The most pure form of art
To me.

I cannot help
But to be selfish
In loving you

Any movement
Of you
Is all I
Long for.

And it's all looking like home again.
Those broken pieces found their place
In line again
In time again
They found their way.
Through it all the things fighting against them
Playing on their sadness
They brought it back from nothing.
They remembered who they were
And who they could be.
Now they're falling down together
Now they're falling down forever
Now they're falling back in love
And it's all looking like home
Again.

But have you ever loved someone
So completely
That every time they left you
They took some of you with them?

Oh how terrible it is
When they do not love you back.
None of them is left to fill you
You're just empty
And you're broken
And you're entirely in love
And there's nothing left at all
To fill you up again.

I'm running out of memories
Of you.

You're always in my head.
Over a year since I met you
Months since you've left.

But you're
Never
Really
Gone.

A love like you
Doesn't leave
A girl like me.

You live in my bones
With music
With color
With light.

You are beauty in every form
And every love I feel
Reminds me of you.

You make me more
Of who I want
To be.

I can't believe
The way I treated you.

You are calm
You are pure
You are sweet

I was vicious
I was rash
I was rude

How could anyone
Ever harm you
Yet here I am
Stabbing you in the back.

You are too soft
For what I did.

Let's
Resurrect
What we were.

Let's
Raise our love
From the dead.

Let's
Try it all
Again.

It was
Supposed to be
You and me
Against the world
Against the worst
Until the end
Until forever

Let's
Start
Again.

I love you more
                                                            ­                  
{In each and every way}

Than you could ever imagine
Or accept.

you
you
you
you
you
really
mess me up
inside.

for you fly
my love
my life
my heart

"A disappointment"
Is what my father called me
Tonight as I was leaving his house.

Please,
Don't forget
To write this on my headstone.

Don't let anyone forget
What I am.

It's no longer fun
When it's
No longer mine.

Like a secret
That I
Didn't mean to tell.

I still see you, you know.
When I close my eyes.

fall
it all
away

It seems the time has come to tell you
To fill you in
To let you know
My little secret.

I've been keeping something from you
That perhaps you already know.
But now that you're leaving
And my heart is crumbling
I want to share my all with you.

I love you,
My dear.
But not only in the way
That you've learned
To love me back.

It's more than that.

I fell in love with you,
Like in the story books.
With the fluttering in my belly
And the inability to form
Logical, clever, conversation.

You thought it was cute
Said it was endearing
You gave me a kiss
And you set my heart reeling.

You changed my life my dear.
I've told you so before.
You opened my eyes to who I am
And despite my desperate trying,
I fell in love with you.

So I apologize for all of the kisses I stole
And for all of the playful looks you gave
That I didn't deserve.
I'm sorry I lead myself on.
And that I broke my own heart.
And I'm sorry that a part of me
Blames you for that.

I wish I could go back
And stop this before it happened,
But it was inevitable.
If it wasn't one thing,
It would have been another.

So I'm sorry.
That I fell in love
With more than just our friendship.
And I'm sorry, that I have to see you go.

But I wish you all the best in your
Endeavors.
And I pray that you forgive me
For all of this.

Goodbye.

You want for me to come to you
Least that is what you said.

But if I were to go there
Then do tell me,
Would we wed?

For I won't give my heart away
To those who'll leave it dead.

So take a risk
And leave your home.
Come here to me instead.

You draw me in
With your sweet smile
And catch my heart
With your coy eye.

I'm mesmerized
By the way you move,
And when he's standing
By your side.

The two of you
Bring me together
And trip me up
When you look at me.

I'm falling into
The way you speak
And when you play,
You set me free.

Your sound, his voice,
You need not fear,
For I know what
Your souls say.

You need not worry
If people hear,
For your words make
Their own way.

That look you give
When you see his face
I know it's for him,
But I skip a beat.

Because the love
That you two share
Is what I need
To feel complete.

Oh I'll just bite my lip
Until the realization of your leaving
Sets in and
Finally kills me.

You kissed
The palm
Of my hand

And you curled
My fingers shut
Over the place
Where your lips
Had just been.

"A kiss to carry
With you
Wherever,
Forever,
Together."

And I press
That hand
Up to my cheek
And use it to
Hold my mouth shut.

And you moved on
And you moved out
And you moved away.

But I'll always have
A glimpse
A bit
A handful
Of your affection.
Wherever.
Forever.
Together.
A kiss.

but then I met

you

and none of the
worries
or
words
from before
mattered at all

for my love is leaving
i gift you my heart

I breathe you in
And hold my heart
As all of you
Consumes me.

I keep that breath,
I dare not breathe.
Because 'we' is what I
Should be.

I miss you.

What we had
Was so simple
So sweet
So innocent
And insecure.

I miss you.

Every day
I think about you
Always.
You were
Forever more
Than just a friend.

I miss you.

How was it so easy with you?
Even now that you know
All my deepest darkest secrets
That I wanted to keep from your
Kind, pure heart.
You know.
You know me.
And it's still so
Simple.
Sweet.
Innocent.
And insecure.

I haven't been able
To love you long enough

To let you leave.

Beauty has found its way
Upon your face
In the form of freckles
All around.

So sweet and pure
And nothing more
You'd never break
A heart.

It's not the same
Anymore.

And at one time that was good
But now I'm not so sure.