If you accidentally
             fall out of love,
Do you just dive
                back in head first?
           Feet first??
                     Eyes closed???
        Cannon ball????
             Or
Do you walk away
       Cause you can't swim
And you're scared to death
                   of *drowning?????

Even through all the anger
and disappointment,
I still can’t help but get distracted
by the sound of your voice
as the noise
burns through my thighs,
making my mind race
to that night
where all we heard
were breaths
and hearts
pounding.

When you tell me that I'm beautiful, I feel it, I breathe it, believe it
Got me feeling indestructable, I love it, I scream it
With you, I'm a queen upon my throne
With you, I build a kingdom out of stone
You fill me up, you fill me up

You died,
and a year has passed

I don't know how to explain
how much I miss you
without being stabbed
by needles in my throat
sometimes I wonder
if the pain from losing you
is drawing me closer to you
but I pray it isn't time yet

You died,
and a year has passed

And every time I write those words,
it hurts me inside
because I can't believe them;
it can't be about you,
you're here

You died,
and a year has passed

I loved and I lost,
and I will continue to love
with your memory inside me
with every person I meet

I died,
And a year has passed.

Your love is like a swarm of thousand bees
Stinging me all over my body
Filling in your lunatic venom
Me craving for more
That toxiferous viscosity
rushing and gushing
into my veins
Leaving no corners of my soul unearthed , undiscovered    
As after some lapse of time those pokes oozing out shades of black                    
Your pestilential destruction works its way into my nerves
Delirium is just so much more acknowledged now
The reality is just so neglected now
Thrashed far away                            
Thats where I like it to be now