I turn off the lights,
And lay my head,
Gently on last night's tears.

I think of you,
And see your face,
And what could've been your years.

I close my eyes,
And pray to God,
Hoping that He hears.

To give me strength,
And give me hope,
And take away my fears.

I look inside,
Deep within my heart,
And that's where He appears.

He holds my hand,
And guides me through,
Until the darkness clears.

So wait for me,
There in Heaven,
Until my day draws near.

For now I must live,
Upon this earth,
For The Lord needs me here.

For some day,
I too shall pass,
And it will be a day of cheer.

I will come home,
To see your face,
And hold you again, my dear.

You give me just enough,
To know that you're still here.
Every "good morning beautiful,"
Says you've not gone anywhere.
Do you have your guard up, though?
So that I can't see?
Are you stepping back,
And waiting patiently?
I wonder if you doubt,
My loyalty to you.
I wish I could give reassurance,
That my faithfulness is true.
I wonder if you question,
Just what it is I see.
I wish I could put your mind at ease,
You've captured more than just my curiosity.
Maybe you don't need these words,
Or the confidence of where I stand.
But just in case, here they are.
Protect them like they're contraband.

Why can't these lonely eyes see you more?
Why can't they gaze longingly at yours?

Baby, why aren't your hands touching me at night?
Why aren't they gripping and holding me tight?

Why does my heart beat so fast when you're near?
Why, everywhere I go, do I wish you were here?

What did you do to do this to me?
How'd you get so close to sweep me off my feet?

How do I stop myself from getting too far gone?
How do I not dream of you from dusk until dawn?

How can I not want you every single day?
How is it, this man I barely know, can take my breath away?

Is it just because for so long I've gone without?
Or are you really a man worth writing about?

Am I good for you or are you bad for me?
Are we gonna keep this up until we can see?

What can I do to stop thinking of you?
Is that at all possible or do I even want to?

How do you make me smile when I only want to cry?
Are you playing with me or do you really want to try?

Why are these my only thoughts when you're away?
What is it about you that's got me acting this way?

Light in the darkness,
Yet darkness in the day.
Just the right kind of madness,
In the best and worst way.

Organized dysfunction,
Chaos within the calm.
Quiet sits upon my lips,
But my words are in my palm.

I cry when I'm happy,
And laugh when I'm sad.
I like you and I hate it,
For softly driving me mad.

I dream of you when I'm awake.
You're not who I thought I'd find.
Fascinated yet terrified,
You're the calm in my restless mind.

Hesitantly I reach out,
With my hands wide closed.
Carefully I observe,
Myself juxtaposed.

I am a prisoner,
without being confined.
I am a hostage,
Within my own mind.
No walls or wires,
No bricks to detain.
No bars or cuffs,
But still I'm in chains.
Thoughts of you,
Grip me tight.
Throughout the day,
Throughout the night.
I'm in solitary,
Alone as I wonder,
This punishment
I'm under.
You're not my punisher,
But rather my light.
Am I wrong,
Or am I right?
Are you my letter?
My glimpse of home?
Or just a dream,
Inside this dome?
I'm being held captive,
Inside my head.
My mind is racing,
But heavy as lead.
I wait for my freedom.
It's fleeting at best.
Only when you're near,
Is this prison at rest.