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Jun 2012 · 904
Will the day ever come?
Roberta Day Jun 2012
Every window of hope
    
  SLAMS shut

as if

I was never supposed
to sneak out

   and make you mine

I don’t agree with gravity
in this regard, for it is you
    who has stolen my heart

   and you covet it, unknowingly
    and instigate these flirtations
leaving me drunk with elation

No, it’s not just the alcohol
that leaves me giggling like a child
  
It’s that you and I,
are nearly the same kind
ultimately compatible
We see eye to eye,

but only one of us realizes
Inspired by a ****** night.
May 2012 · 635
Go Away
Roberta Day May 2012
Step back, away from my zone
of comfort; your presence stands
my hairs on end, and I pretend
I am not annoyed, but what good is
subtle sarcasm and lackadaisical
tone when speaking to an outdated
mindset with little room left to grow
if the satisfaction of your reaction is
not delivered nor comprehended?
May 2012 · 1.1k
Shady
Roberta Day May 2012
My eyes don’t meet your mystery ones
because I’m afraid you’ll see
the absence of light in my cores
and conclude we’ll never be

My eyes shy from yours,
but not for why you think
I’m hiding the lack of twinkle
behind closed lids when I blink

Empty, which of us is empty?
At this point, I can’t tell
Your touch doesn’t titillate me
Au contraire, it makes me dwell

I don’t wish to discourage
though I do it rather well
I’m tense and distant, yes
How ever could you tell?
Met a guy. Didn't work out.
May 2012 · 712
Let's Duet
Roberta Day May 2012
There’s a harmony in my mind
I cannot achieve with my voice
I need one to accompany me
Singing solo is not my choice

A blend of soprano and tenor
or an enticing alto to carry
the faltering sound I emit
to make the sound less airy

Sweep me off my feet
with the beauty in your tone
and with vibrato to melt my ears
I no longer wish to sing notes alone
May 2012 · 846
What is that in the air?
Roberta Day May 2012
Silence;
a blank page
without whispered textures
upon its face
A settling absence
of auditory stimuli
or a nerve-wracking presence
between your temples
The stillness in the air
conforms around you,
dousing you with complacence;
A lingering tone
will commence the mood
and cause a stir inside you
slaying your sanity
to bits
Apr 2012 · 723
Loop
Roberta Day Apr 2012
A poet doesn't lie,
       a poet omits
the suppressed thoughts and sensations
she will never forget
The painful memories she hopes to create,
       The ill-tempered words
       tied to strings of hate that
L o o p--
             a reoccurring
             pattern of
              maladjusted
             thinking

  A sense of dread churns in your gut,
writhing behind your chest cavity,
invading your consciousness,
shutting it down

       Perspiration begins,
and the rattling in your bones
Nausea sets in,
    reeling your blood
   It's happening again,
            this you know,
but time will not tell
when this attack will go

Your throat constricts
                   while time afflicts
everything you've kept inside--
the emotions you've kept alive
       when you should have set them free
captives of your debauchery
they've transformed into something ugly,
           the wretch of scorn and self-pity
and have unleashed their vengeance
for smothering them with poisons
       depriving them of breath,
and of their destiny

They're doing unto you,
what you did unto them,
       killing you tediously,
disrupting your mind with
   irrational fear
and depleting the dopamine
transmitted through your system
to plague you with indifference
towards reality
          The symptoms it carries
manipulate your thought-process,
restarting the l o o p--
                     a reoccurring
                     pattern of
                      maladjusted
                     thinking
Tried something different with the formatting. Feedback appreciated :}
Apr 2012 · 758
Haikuesday April 24th
Roberta Day Apr 2012
Procrastination
will ultimately be the
death of my sanity
True story.
Apr 2012 · 467
Haikuesday April 17th
Roberta Day Apr 2012
I looked to the sun

and instead of finding light,

I lost my vision
Apr 2012 · 398
Last Call
Roberta Day Apr 2012
You’ve shown me the light
at the end of the tunnel
But your words of steel
didn’t stop the train,
Nor did your hand on the lever

I’ve been hit with realization

The cloud of smog you’ve bellowed
Will no longer linger overhead
As the light funnels to a close
I pray the ring of this last call
Echoes throughout your skull
Apr 2012 · 915
Sputtered Ink
Roberta Day Apr 2012
I’m feeling as if I’m writing no longer for myself,
but for the absent critique of those I admire
I’m convinced I’ll never produce a work
that will gain the recognition I aspire

My passion is derived from what I don’t possess
Short tales of love and dignity
My words fall short of second-best
It seems I’ll never grasp this feat

My creative drive sputters ink,
but dies short of my expectations
That distorted voice of self-pity
reminds me of my own limitations

I fail to progress in this line of art
and doubt all of my capabilities
I fear the day when my spark dies
and writing is no longer a proclivity
Roberta Day Apr 2012
I no longer possess the will nor train of thought
to focus on education or socializing
And whatever I manage to write
has already been written by this hand
in different variations but with the same emotional ailment
Lethargy lies under my skin
a blanket for my still blood
I cannot shake it free or shrug it off
I have to make an incision
but I cannot make this decision
because procrastination holds the scalpel
and after it keenly sterilizes the blade
and tends to the many precautions of this surgery,
then inevitably becomes distracted by its other senses’ desires,
my disease will have won
Mar 2012 · 665
In Ruins
Roberta Day Mar 2012
My temple is in ruins
and nothing can prevent this collapse
Soon I'll be stripped of these cursed remains
and all will be left are ancient artifacts
and relics from a better time,
long lost and forgotten

An excavation to find the spark,
buried under years of repressed emotions
locked away in a tomb without an encrypted entry
I seek those brave enough to embark on this quest,
and wade through the litter and rubble
to raid this infamous lair of despair
Mar 2012 · 524
Haikuesday March 27th
Roberta Day Mar 2012
My obligation
to haikuesday has fizzled,
but not faded yet.
Roberta Day Mar 2012
Punctuality

is my selective forte

Again, forgive me
Written on Wednesday, March 21st.
Mar 2012 · 864
Sleep
Roberta Day Mar 2012
Sleep; an essential part of life--
a non-essential part of my night
I shall not travel to the land of slumber and
imagery that leave me to ponder and
decipher the undertone of my unconscious desires

Sleep, you will not store my memories tonight
You play as something illusory occuring past midnight
You vanquish the beginning of my day
and I fall victim of the bed to lay
for hours and hours when there is much to do,
much to ignore, and to fail to follow through

Sleep, I won't succumb to your relieving wiles
You interrupt my mind's process of files
and collages of information
Admittedly, you aid in the retention
of the aforementioned,
but I'd rather learn than burn away
precious time improving myself--
documenting my imbalanced mental health
or recreating art I wished I produced

Sleep, though I love the lucid dreams you induce,
sometimes they make me become more of a recluse
because I never want them to end,
so I stay alone to reenact and pretend that
for just a little while longer,
I can feel passion again

I've been desensitized in a chimerical fashion
I cannot endure this now so I'm commencing action
Sleep, I'm taking a break from your comatose spell
and the ephemeral dreams you compel
Mar 2012 · 458
I hate using titles.
Roberta Day Mar 2012
Sometimes I forget about those who are near
simply out of fear, for I become too engrossed
in feeling so morose and sorry for myself
I've figuratively put my companions on a shelf,
stored on tiny pedastals that remind me of their wealth,
but I can't seem to breathe in this suffocating mess,
nor can I call upon those who I view are the best
when I feel so small and so disconnected
with the rest of my blood I've rejected
Mar 2012 · 365
Haikuesday March 13th
Roberta Day Mar 2012
I vow to compose

the greatest haiku when I

have aged wise and true
Mar 2012 · 412
Haikuesday March 6th
Roberta Day Mar 2012
What am I feeling

in this moment to share with

the masses who care?
I'm aware it's well past the 6th, I simply forgot to put this up here.
Mar 2012 · 1.3k
Uncertainty
Roberta Day Mar 2012
What is this hold upon me?
It constricts and stifles every thought that appears,
with a chloroform rag drenched in discontent
Mild perfectionism, if such a thing, and procrastination leave me
frequently wondering where the time went

The questions I ask myself repeatedly
never receive answers with credibility
A rhythm with no rhyme; a melody in offset time
A misty meaning behind glossy eyes
that I’ve tied together with endless lines
of verbose attempts to explain my mind

No feeling is palpable, no imagery fabricated
Only an idea of what could be,
of what I cannot grasp,
and what I cannot convey

So I’m left with this clouded mind
jostled by ambivalence
(this word ceases to elude me)
on a maladjusted playground,
teetering and tottering on the fine edge
of sanity in this bleak reality
Roberta Day Mar 2012
Celebrate your birth

regardless of year; thank the

Universe for Earth
Feb 2012 · 777
RIP Ethan Khan
Roberta Day Feb 2012
Death is among us

it breathes and lingers,

capturing the unexpected

with its alluring fingers

It's so overwhelming

knowing each breath could be your last

The things that get you

are the things from your past

Some don't deserve it,

some crave its touch

Some have decided

that they'd like it very much

To see the light,

to see the dark

To see the one

that bares the mark

Something more powerful

is out there for sure

Everything happens for a reason

I have to concur

Death is among us,

taking the selected

But to take Ethan Khan,

that was just unexpected
I wrote this my junior year in high school after someone I knew died.
Feb 2012 · 540
Haikuesday February 14th
Roberta Day Feb 2012
Cupid, infect me

***** me; saturate me with

Infatuation
Feb 2012 · 856
Without Touch
Roberta Day Feb 2012
all showered and shaved,
gussied and primped,
with no one to touch
hence a lonely night spent
tapping away on plastic keys
to people near and far over seas,
who mimic my movements
directly through the screen
typing away, writing obscene
poetry and fiction
with articulate diction
of tales of titillating touches
by our celebrity crushes,
for our realistic lives
are in a lasting drought,
therefore fervent encounters are without
but the passion that burns
lies in our lust-less yearn
to be held, touched, and stimulated,
sensually caressed and dominated
depictions of kink send sparks
to particularly my lady parts
and the desire for one's touch
becomes almost too much,
so I channel these feelings
that leave my nerves reeling,
and loneliness settles in
before I can even begin
to describe the touch
of which I cannot feel
and wish the instances
I fabricate with words
could only be real
Written February 12, 2012.
Roberta Day Feb 2012
Neglected again,
this groggy Tuesday has been
wet with rain and tears
Jan 2012 · 466
Haikuesday, January 17th
Roberta Day Jan 2012
Off goes my alarm,
urgently blaring a new
day's awakening
Jan 2012 · 4.3k
Donuts (part three)
Roberta Day Jan 2012
All of a sudden,
something is aloof
The air becomes stale,
like the bread of sourdough;
you refuse to walk through
the garden overgrown, infested with
insecurities and a plethora of doubt
           I  believed you to be
           a recipe I figured out
I'm left teetering on my toes
as vehemence in me grows
and the mystery within you
is unfortunately never shown

Riddle me your chivalry's
whereabouts as of late
You're good at concealing
all that you're feeling
I remember when you were sweet,
     like the aura we would create
           like the donuts you brought me;
           a dozen sugar-coated holes and
           one lone blueberry
My insides have been fried
in a hot mess called love,
and a dozen-sugar coated holes
from you my dear, was
considerably enough
Part three.
Jan 2012 · 465
Haikuesday January 10th
Roberta Day Jan 2012
Dissipating debt
brings much happiness to me
I can breathe again
Jan 2012 · 3.3k
Donuts (part two)
Roberta Day Jan 2012
Picked freshly from the
garden of my newfangled
burning infatuation for you,
a fine blanket of lettuce,
to suit my modest request
This evening holds meaning,
accented with wine of white
over candlelight,
delicious Italian dining tonight
You do me well,
you know you do

Scorching days
turn to chilly nights
We are but two spoons,
failing to convect heat
to warm each other’s souls
and hands, which I kept
moisturized, for us;
scented fingers of vanilla
caress uniquely speckled skin
Genuine fascination
in everything
that is
*you
Jan 2012 · 3.7k
Donuts (part one)
Roberta Day Jan 2012
So numb
and heavy,
eyelids flutter shut
turmoil within my gut
peach scented tea
howling for me,
wafting my way
all thanks to you

Breakfast is important
that you've taught me;
It vitalizes me, your

      favorite kind of day

thank you dear for coming my way
I appreciate this sweet gesture,
you are one too kind;
won't you bring me donuts every day?

          *For you, I don't mind
Jan 2012 · 359
Haikuesday January 3rd
Roberta Day Jan 2012
Another new year

might once again be the last

I ponder the end
Published January 3, 2012
Roberta Day Dec 2011
Today, a haiku
Tomorrow, Say Anything
Little work, no play
I was unable to go to the Say Anything concert for I had not enough money. Every. Time.
Roberta Day Dec 2011
I forgot to write
A poem earlier, but
I love cold weather
Actually written Wednesday, December 7th, meant for Tuesday, December 6th.
Dec 2011 · 649
Haikuesday, November 29th
Roberta Day Dec 2011
My little black knight,
soundly sleeping on towels
I dare not wake him
I participate in writing haiku poems on Tuesdays. I post them on tumblr, but I think I'll add them to my hellopoetry as well.
Dec 2011 · 987
Laid to Rest (revised)
Roberta Day Dec 2011
My infatuation meter is
on the fritz
It hasn't worked
since the reading of you
When I come in contact
with others,
no sort of result is
produced

The spark inside
has finally died,
and you're the one who drenched it
in crocodile tears -- claiming you're too weak
to face your fears...it's like looking
at a reflection of
myself this year...

We could have battled them all
      together
But instead we're settled to
     friends of fair-weather
I am the one who is suffering;
for
still today, you appear
                                      in my dreams

Decades from now,
I envision my
solitary conquest:
Success;
from recording my innards
I've always repressed
And of course,
an unfilled void, I fear not
to attest
All because that spark
inside me remained
unaddressed

But I have no more patience
or time to invest
in a folly; I'll rid
of my broken meter I
now detest
It died with you, now perhaps
your memory too
may be finally
laid to rest
Revised and retitled version of "Your memory may be finally laid to rest."
Nov 2011 · 703
Sweet Escape
Roberta Day Nov 2011
To elevate my mind,

I wander towards the green
to coat my lungs with wispy, tasteful, heavenly
crystals and hairs blanketed with such
sweet vibrations of tetrahydrocannibinol;

To feel out of touch, yet so connected
with reality on another plane,

To resonate tranquility and clarity with such peace
OH! How do I love thee, Mary Jane
Wrote this on tumblr November 18, 2011.
Oct 2011 · 110.8k
Lucid
Roberta Day Oct 2011
I want to sleep forever and reside in my dreams
           To frolic through a collage of different spectacles and scenes
                An escape from the insufferable, cruel world at large
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever so I can live in my dreams
           The ruler of the lands, the queen of all kings
               With nothing to fear but the darkside of the conscience
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever and fight my inner demons
        Provide peace of mind for all bothered and exhausted
              Float on utter bliss; those monsters, I'll never miss
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever and never show sadness again
        Bright, long-lasting smiles on weekly sullen days
             Created and maintained in a variety of ways
I want to sleep forever

I want to sleep forever to erase everything
       I want to sleep forever and feel warmth again
           To bathe myself in content that won't ever end
Let me sleep forever
Oct 2011 · 1.5k
An excerpt from my life.
Roberta Day Oct 2011
"...And out of nowhere, she got sad and anti-social and wanted nothing more than to leave. It came out of nowhere, as it often does, and takes a while to leave. It especially likes to appear when certain depressants are involved, and when the memories of a better time begin to play in her mind.

The sight of them makes her stomach churn and all of her emotions turn sour. She then longs to find something -- anything -- as a distraction; she begins thinking of excuses to depart the loathed scene before her.

She pities herself, for continuing to feel hope. She dislikes herself for feeling misogynistic. She so desperately wants what she can't -- and seemingly never will -- have again. It kills her deeply to still feel these feelings after all this time.

Said feelings were supposedly detachable, so why not detach herself again?

It's always easier said than done."
Sep 2011 · 591
Trapped
Roberta Day Sep 2011
I'm trapped...
Trapped inside this ball of deceit bouncing off rubber
Suffocate me...
Leave me in a dumpster so that I might be taken to an island with no others

My ears have saved me once again
Blind I would rather be than to not hear soothing sultry sounds
On the contrary, I would be more content if not to hear the lies that pour from your shanties you call hearts

Trust, I have very little of, though it runs all through my blood
I'm close to giving up on all of you
Me, myself, and my irate moods
All thanks to you

Sometimes I wanna drive away and leave everyone behind
It's not me, it's all of you, most of the time
Wrote this a long time ago.
Sep 2011 · 852
A Tangled Web We Weave
Roberta Day Sep 2011
The web sways, but it doth venture away
It stays, as it may, catching creatures that play
Waiting for that one day you and I may meet

Stuck in this sticky essence with no place for our feet
We cannot escape our fate that awaits
To be devoured by an arachnid, no pleas will be accepted
Can we stall what is to come?

Our wings have failed to keep us alive
We've flown right into a trap, like a bear to a bee hive
An exchange of words would be nice...
Even an, "Everything will be alright."

Nothing is fine when you've met your maker
Everything will seem inadequate
Nothing can fill the slot

You hold my hand as I hold my breath
If it were to escape, our death would be meaningless
For I would have soiled the best of the worst
I cannot break this wretched curse

The bite doth cause me agony, but my inability to let it be
My hand slips from yours, my eyes can't see
How strange to die alone when I'm with company
This was inspired by a spider web and the odd situations I tend to get myself in.
Sep 2011 · 777
Home Plate
Roberta Day Sep 2011
Life throws you curveballs once you're up to bat
Twisting and turning; better hold steady the bat above the mat
The wrong technique could blow the game; focus and be ready
Hold your ground, breathe slowly; remain calm and steady
What's coming your way is often unexpected
Starting with an invitation for entertainment that cannot be rejected
To a darkened home from a romantic scene ****** from some fantasy
You've imagined to feel something so right over and over again
But once you've left first, you realize home is your destination for where you begin and where you end

What's done is done; you really lost when you think you won
But even one victory doesn't shadow the vacancy that still lingers
The emptiness fills you and it shows through shaky fingers
The romantic scene you dreamed of has faded quickly
The details of it all you remember vividly
Reliving the fantasy, devoid of all reality
Home plate is not a safe place to be
I wrote the first line of this and decided to continue on the same path.
Sep 2011 · 1.1k
Muse
Roberta Day Sep 2011
A burning desire for change;
A lack of courage or will
A loathing for what revolves the world;
A face printed on a pine green bill

A fixed way of life;
A reoccurring depression
A longing for something nonexistent;
An evolving experience to teach a lesson

A loss of interest;
A depletion of confidence
A slew of captivating faces;
An overactive conscience

A bond lost to dishonesty;
An end to faith in humanity
A new outlook, new perspective;
A bundle of positive thoughts collected
Aug 2011 · 1.1k
Isolated
Roberta Day Aug 2011
Am I still welcome here?

I only felt appreciated when you were near

Alas, we have grown apart

And left to ache, my heart
Wrote this on tumblr about my ex.
Aug 2011 · 1.4k
Detachable Feelings
Roberta Day Aug 2011
My love for you knows no bounds
Regardless of how upsetting you tend to be
One more confession following one more round
I'm far from blind but can't quite see

A connection I miss, intimacy and truth
Your voice was music to my ears
Essentially we are now escaping our youth
Mentally, you've got a couple more years

Promises were made that cease to exist
(Promises were made to be broken?)
I disagree though, I'm to blame for this
Fear is my ailment for why I haven't spoken

"There's nothing to fear but fear itself"
Straight from the horse's mouth
I've failed to comply with my word as well
Still filled with excess doubt

You managed to remove that away from a while
Guaranteed, a job well done
With even just a crack of a smile
I received my prize, I proudly won

The game is over, no lives left
No mushrooms to revive me now
If it was that simple, I'd hit 'select'
And 'retry' with better understanding how

Starting over begins the same
But the direction and obstacles change
A new route is followed in vain
For not enough experienced has been gained

You're such a charmer, I know
I still haven't fully broken your spell
I'm currently trying my hand at laying low
I question your thoughts; by now you should know me well

I want inside your head and heart
Where does your pain emerge from?
My curiosity is insatiable once I've felt a spark
I will continue to listen until your confession is done

I don't force a smile, but it's not completely real
I can maintain being civil with you
When you attempt to hide things you failed to conceal
My submissive attitude is what I must subdue

Why do I continue to feel this ache?
Does mental illness play a possible factor?
The idea of romanctic love I can't seem to shake
Yet if it's real, it inevitably won't matter

According to them, I don't know who you are
Yet I feel I've known all along
And even so, I've fallen this hard
I simply hope you'll still play me that song
Oh yeah, I play video games.
Aug 2011 · 5.3k
Chance
Roberta Day Aug 2011
When times get rough, we try to break and run
There's nothing to fear but fear itself
You can't succeed if you don't try
Positive thinking will work wonders

I can't help but make things awkward
I'm unsure of how to act
I still perceive you as mine
It's hard letting go, I'm slipping off track

It seems solitude won't help us grow
It obviously hasn't worked before
Why not depend on each other?
There's always something more

I believe we can do this, together
Join forces, slay our demons
A change is gonna come
Let's sail through this stormy weather

I'll be your crutch if you be my sight
I won't give up without a fight
I implore you to reconsider
I can help you see the light

Take my hand, teamwork never fails
I promise we won't lose each other
We'll discover all what this entails
And experience happiness within ourselves
Aug 2011 · 1.5k
Prototypes
Roberta Day Aug 2011
You are all hollow bodies with vacant minds

I sadly continue to waste my time

Ignoring my instincts, complying with you

Such a fool I am to disregard the obvious truth

You’re all designed for social situations, never obligations

Engineered for leisure, whatever is easier

Too blinded by toxins, too apathetic towards authority

You are the majority of this dispersing minority
This was something I wrote late at night on tumblr. I'm sure I was inebriated, also.
Aug 2011 · 2.9k
The Crab and the Lion
Roberta Day Aug 2011
Velvet touch; scarlet passion

Shake me down, blissful you

Wrap me in security

A fine embrace will do

Fill my void with your masculinity,

Harmony and adoration

Firmly grasp me with your voice

Let’s speak without anticipation

Selfishness and selflessness;

Opposites will surely attract

I’m unable to douse your flickering flame

I’m full of emotion you can’t extract

Scratch my shell with your snide remarks,

I’ll feed the ego that fiends

I’ll shower you with infatuation;

Satisfy all of your emotional needs

I hold you in my heart with high regards,

though you caused it much ache

You swept me off my feet last Spring

I failed to feel the ground beneath me quake

The escape to a distant plane was easily the best

We held each other’s hand until we laid to rest

No barriers between us, no confidence to wound

I dreamt of you so often; it all ended too soon
I recently have become interested in astrology, so that's where I got the idea for this one.
Aug 2011 · 1.6k
Little Miss Sunshine
Roberta Day Aug 2011
You were my first slow-dance

Gladly, my first true romance

So delicate, so passionate

a fruitful leap I took with you

With trust and beliefs

in whatever we do

You profoundly adored me

and I achingly cherished you…

Hovered over me high in the air

On that menial item we call a chair

Sadly, it was I, the one that put you there
Aug 2011 · 699
Answers
Roberta Day Aug 2011
Why do we reach for satisfaction when we inevitably fail?
Why do we question what we're supposed to hail?
Why don't we know what comes after our bitter end?
Why are we coached to smile and pretend?

From the time we are born to the time we die
We question if the life we're living is a lie
Is there more to it than money and greed?
Shouldn't answers be something we need?

Life is a game and we are controlled
Controlled by a higher power that has yet to be told
A voice stays in our minds, forever spewing nonsense
Reminding us of the time we have left and the time we've spent

We've read all the books, we've practiced all the faith
Yet no true answers are revealed about our fate
So we continue to reach, and inevitably fall
And wonder if there is something to catch us at all
Aug 2011 · 1.8k
Passive-agression
Roberta Day Aug 2011
Passive-aggression?
I'm withholding feelings I'm afraid to mention
You'll judge me with your intellect and wit
I'll deal with myself how I see fit

I'm comfortable, yet always on guard
This isn't how things are supposed to start
I only care to please you
But I've failed myself, and can't help but continue

I've put you on a pedestal, despite your flaws
You're everything I want because you're everything I'm not
I seem to be losing confidence in myself
Constant contemplation, refutation...

There are so many things I wish to say
I feel the opportunity continues to slip away
I'm too slow to grasp the concept of initiative
So this passive, ambiguous life, I'll continue to live

— The End —