if i got everything i ever needed,
then i wouldn't be here with you

like dawn,
i rise my head up,
and remember my values most,
then comes sunset,
and i feel down again.

my weaknesses,
they hold me down.
I try to get up,
but there's no way how.
I try to escape it,
and try to be strong,
but they'll be here forever,
and i won't last long.

i sank ships,
when i was bored,
i watched them drown,
and laughed more.
I hated how the ships,
floated above the ocean,
i kissed the water with my lips,
and the waves splashed,
the waves crashed,
and down went the ships.
There was life under the boats,
and i lived it all,
i loved the blue,
the fish,
and most of all,
it was my home.

the sun sets,
because she believes she's not good enough,
and the sun rises,
because she has faith in herself

i feel like i can't do much
with being me,
when all i want to do
is help others feel appreciated.

pictures only tell one story;
lies
you can fake a smile on camera,
and nobody would know.

the joy of alone,
my solitude gives me space,
it helps me think,
sometimes i just need to be around nobody but myself.

i hated love
until you taught me what it actually was

when we try to defend ourselves,
we look like the bad guys,
but when we give in and say sorry,
we automatically become the good ones.

my smiles mean pain,
my smiles mean "save me",
my smiles mean that i need to be loved
my smiles are anything but smiles;
they're screams for help

gentle dreams,
stormy night
my dreams occur,
not a fright
because even though
its cold outside,
my mind is still trying to hide.

i dream of my mother,
holding my hand,
its warm and sunny,
our toes in the sand
we laugh and play
and she hugs me tight,
she says,
"take care, it's a chilly night"

she leaves me behind,
now I'm in my cold bed,
i turn over and i see
the night is dead,
it's early morning,
and i realize,
my mother helped me through
the lonely, helpless, 𝘄𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁.

"your dreams are unrealistic" they say
but we only speak from what we see

my smile creeps up on my face

the blood contrasting on the grass looks so lovely

who knew it would bring such joy to a person

to see the body lying there,

expressionless,

it's better than the arrogance it had.

Now i stand here alone,

the moonlight giving the body a magnificent glow.

𝘢𝘮 𝘪 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦?
stop thinking about it, just go to sleep.
𝘢𝘮 𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦?
don't think, just close your eyes.
𝘥𝘰 𝘪 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧?
stop.
𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦?


i don't know.

i never will.

just let me sleep

Not everyone was born a sinner
But it’s hard to tell with people

am i what i perceive me as?
or am i just a reflection?

5 minutes left.
i thought we were in this together?
4 minutes left.
i can't be with you
3 minutes left.
i've gotta run
2 minutes left.
this can't be true
1 minute left.              
i have nothing to say
10 seconds left.
goodbye, i loved you, but the end is today.

sometimes it's hard to tell
whether somebody's love is unconditional,
and it makes me think of people differently.

he meant the world to her
she took his hand and they flew to the moon

There was nobody to judge them
so they lived in happiness for years
they surrounded themselves with the bubble of their love
it protected them from pain

Until he died.
there was no point in living on the moon anymore
so she went back
and the people laughed at her

so she surrounded herself with a bubble
               isolated
               alone
and the moon could only shine at her to remind her that
he was still with her

i don't want to die alone,
but i don't want to die with you either

we danced around the fire that night,
and climbed the trees and watched the stars,
we rolled on the fields,
and played card games,
then slept on the grass,
and screamed our names,
we held each other's hands,
we held them tight,
and set up a fire,
and danced that night.

you can't trust a survivor,
until you find out what they did to survive

Why does it hurt when you tell me you love me
Even though that’s what I wanted to hear
Why do I tell you I hate you
Even though my love for you is clear
I never wanted to hurt you
But you let me down
So I had to teach you
To stick around
but now I don’t know what to fear

limits,
are just a way to show that we have control over something,

even though we end up crossing the limits.

people only show fear when they know they can't be saved

it's not easy being with you,
but it's not easy leaving you either

"when was the last time you felt like you could appreciate yourself?"

honestly, there's no better time than now. cuz ill regret it later, bringing myself down like that.

the color of your eyes
Remind me of the times
When we loved each other
Until we lost hope in ourselves
And forgot why we wanted to be together
I still look back and cant say
That I was ever happy with what we had

is it the moon that's calling?
or the reflection of the sun,
that asks for light?

some lies,
some truth,
and some are an escape from your world,
the life that stories hold,
sometimes better than our own.