My belief that I could heal you
only poisoned our embrace
Inclinations to revere you
pushed me further from your grace

My obsession with your outline
served to blur what was inside
I could make the pieces fit
but I could not bridge the divide

My reluctance to release you
spurred you further from my reach
No discussion, all compulsion
Learned a lesson I can't teach

So I lie, face down, inside
the jagged coffin of my mind
Searching it for reason
Something I can never find

Gleeful parasites intent on obliteration
feed on the stillness.
Starlight can't warm the damp grass.
If only he had cosied up once
for one last chance
to embrace.

What once felt
Like a punch to the gut
Will someday
Feel like a pinch