The day you came back into my life
I remembered how beautiful the sun could be

i spend more time fearing myself and wishing I was different
than hating the person who ruined my life
i force myself to act sad so people know I'm not alright

im hurting the people who love me again
like a washing machine on rinse
i repeat

sad songs are more appealing than a full meal
i can't remember the last time i looked in the mirror and felt real

i throw around terms of diagnosis because im scared to know its real
i joke about my problems because its the only way i can feel

i spent three months completely numb and didnt really care
i lie to my therapist about how im doing because its easier staying here

my mum looks at me like a stranger
where did her little girl go

dad doesnt really speak to me
the distance will just grow

im stuck in my room, my mind, my life
im stuck with a key in my hand

every single time you breakdown in my arms
I care a little less

It’s terrifying to be in a relationship
Where you are always there to support them
Yet know that they will never truly support you

I’m not hiding what I’m trying to do
Every single action tears me away from you
I’m holding the matches in my heart
While staring in your eyes and breaking you apart
You’ll be the gas and I’ll provide the spark
Round and around
Till death do us part