Forwards and backwards
Mirrored upsidedown
Don't look quite so close
You might see me frown

I zoom into the day
I can laugh and smile
Take a wrong step back
And regret for a while

Pull a single mask off
See another beneath
Imposter times two
With zero relief

I zoom out of the day
Can't be bothered to care
Ask the one who zoomed in
If they've some emotions to spare

Zoom in zoom out
Puffed eyes dipped in apathy
Crystal ***** rolling randomly
In biweekly duality

Pick my brain for a joke
Find chewed gum thoughts
Lost under my tounge
Next to half undone knots

Ran in a circle
To see where I'd been
Landed flat on my face
Just to start again

The past is the past
But I never understood
What moving forward meant
Or how anyone could.

Rapid fire memories
Could sink this floating ship
Into the cruel undertow
My blur heart would dip.

The fondest of relationships
Have been worn to one side each
And the glued on ruby lenses
Will not let them teach.

Perhaps I shall sink
And mourn what time tore
I do not have the strength
To swim forward anymore.

When the tears come
I cannot name a reason
Except for the crime I committed
For existing, which is treason.

I ponder as I weep
Into the gleaming night
On cracks I must’ve slipped through
With the end nowhere in sight.

Exhaustion of the heart,
Drag me to it depths
Each new fall from grace
Made with willing steps.

The oceans waves rage above
As I sink to the numb
Current carry me to tears
Among the ever growing thrum.

At the bottom lies despair
Hardly that which I escape
And soon enough shall I sink
Allow my life to fall out of shape.

You’ve no heart of gold
Nor shimmering silver tongue
You’ve not ivory words
From which listeners are strung

You’ve the soul of a star
Which in the night was forged
Which deepest dark and inky void
Upon your light has gorged

And I stayed up and stared
From a distance yet unknown
From the confines of mortal flesh
To see what might be shown

I wondered to myself in silence
How one could be so bright
There was pity found with the awe
For you who floated in the night

I understood the poets praise
For the moon who hung above
While it sat just out of reach
Did not burn their professed love

E’er longer did I stare
And ponder the vast you call home
And the brightest burning beauties
Must shed their light alone

You, my dear, are not the moon
Calm and cool and close
Burn with E’er growing splendor
Yet, from solitude, reap your woes

I am a selfish girl
Laughing as much as I do
Smiling as much as I can
And forcing you to laugh to

Telling jokes you can’t resist
Just to see you grin
Show me your beautiful joy
And maybe I can win

And when you can’t find your laugh
Hand to me your heart
The pieces it’s in don’t matter
I’ll fix what falls apart

Because I’m a selfish girl
And if you’ve had yet to see
I’ll hold your world together
So that I don’t have to fix me

You grabbed my heart
I turned to look
You're the hope that vanished
But it was my world that shook

Your smile is a pick
Strumming at the strings
And as you walk by
Every bird sings

And I am a shadow
The moon to your sun
Made for whispers and tears
Not smiles and fun

I'm stuck in the back
Raising my hand
All eyes to you
And I don't understand

I'm not admired
No one cares for my work
My personality's flawed
Unlike yours that has quirk

No one will see me
With that gleam in their eye
The way they see you
The best butterfly