When the walls are closing
The ceiling, crushing
Finding a way out feels impossible
When the pressure gets intense
What do you do to find relief?
Where do you go?
How do you cope?

Empty threats  
Fill up pages
Seems I come to see
Angry ink of
Thoughtlessness

With only four words her whole life changed "you bet your life" he mocked, and she did. She bet her life it would be just the way it was written. So she read the words over and over again. She promised and prayed with dedication. Then she stood back and watched it unfold. Just as it was told it happend and she knew. He was trying to make her doubt but she knew. She was not blinded by uncertainty; she was grounded in belief. Unshaken by fear she knew her life was important, important enough to dedicate. She was important enough to love. Some wanted her to think she wasn't but she knew that wasn't true, after all, she bet her life on it.

That glimmer in his eye
The charm in his walk, his talk
It was a curse
Didn't you notice his broken finger?
3rd one on the left
That was a present from his mother
No Doctor called at 6 years old
When the trunk slammed down
The remedy was olive oil
No CPS was called back then
They called him tough, brave and strong
But really it was a curse

Do you remember when we walked together along the sandy beach, sounds of the ocean in the background. I was collecting full seashells from the sand... I remember us. You were carefree; you loved to jog first thing in the morning. I was reluctant but I loved your spirit and oh how I longed for your energy. I envied your love of life, that was something I had never posessed...until I found you. I yearned to live with you in your love of life. I wanted so badly to feel the immense love you felt from every face you greeted and every laugh you caused. You were my life and they took you away from me. I may not deserve life or love or laughter but I am grateful I had your's even if it was for a brief moment and gone too quickly. I will remember.