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Renae Aug 2015
Trust who?
Trust you?
Why should I?
What have you done
That makes me want to?
Have you said something
That sounds so true?
I've been down this road before
Why believe you?
Even if you mean it now
In 10 years I doubt you do
Trust is easily broken
Forgotten and used
It is something I possess
No longer
Since
My trust has been abused
Renae Aug 2015
The only love I've ever known is the best kind. She brings you juice while you're sick and props up your pillows, then stays awake all night just to make sure you'll be okay.

The only love I've  ever known drove a thousand miles to pick me up when I was in trouble, then smiled and said "I love you no matter what".

The only love I've ever known told me the truth all the time and never made me wonder how she felt. She doesn't hate or get bitter; she laughs, loves and lives anyway.

The only love I've ever known is the one I've hurt so deeply I could never repair. Still she forgives completely, never brings up my error and no matter what I need, she is always there.
My mom ❤
Renae Aug 2015
What should be now
Was here last week
When it's in the bank today
The offer's nowhere to be seen
When I don't have it I need it
When it's here, the need is gone

Still somewhere in the confusion
My dyslexic life goes on
Here's a good example,
Take a read why don't you
Peak into my life's lessons
Desperation sure as truth:

He told me his thoughts
He told me his dreams
He made me feel
Like I was the queen
I said "please be there for me
for what I must go through"
He said "I'm sorry
it's just bad timing,
I chose her over you "
Renae Aug 2015
I'm so selfish
That's what you say
Like it was written in stone
As if it's the only explanation

So I'm the culprit
That's what you say
As if it were truth
As if there is only one side

I took everything
That's what you say
Like you are a victim
And I am a monster
As if I provoked your anger

I should have just listened
That's what you say
Like you were a wonderful example
As if we could have no fear

I should have submitted
That's what you say
As though you are not hypocritical
Like I could fully trust you
At least
*That's what you say
Renae Jul 2015
I don't know
what went wrong
Or where
It just happens
Just like that
One minute it's okay
The next it's over
The hurt is there
It's deep and wide
Like a canyon
Bottomless
How can you fill a canyon?
A canyon with tall steep cliffs?

I will pour myself in
Fall
Try with every ounce of strength
Every last bit
To reach across
To pull it together
To somehow bridge this
I am flexible
I can bounce back
I will dive in
With everything I am
Do all I can
To fill the emptiness
Renae Jul 2015
Words
They make your tiny wheels
Turn like clockwork
It's automatic
Sometimes the wheels
Spin so fast
Damage happens
Irreparable thoughts enter
A snap occurs
Reaction follows
The result
An immense collapse

On the other hand
The opposite
A building of
Encouragement
Helpful and thoughtful
Collections of compliments
Making a person believe
They can achieve anything

Oh how powerful
Are words
Renae Jul 2015
I've been to the bottom
Once or twice
I've been in need
More than I'd like
I've made some choices
Of which I'm not proud
Only you were there
Only you pulled me out
Out of the wreckage
Out of my depths
Only you were there
When I was desperate
Only you
Were all I could look to
Talk to
Believe in always
Only you
Jehovah <3
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