im in a whirlpool of emotions
and i'm not sure whether i should
fight against this current or
if i should just let myself
go.

I know now that there's no time to waste on the past, for the present is right in front of me.

you inched your fingers towards mine
and the rule "No PDA" slipped my mind
and I couldn't seem to help but wonder
what God has in store for us.

I hate looking at you
And
Knowing you're not *mine.

"Am I the kind of guy you could see yourself having a relationship with?"
I thought for a moment.
I took a deep breath and said the truth.
After all, the truth is all I have now.
"Right now? No. I mean, awhile ago you were the most beautiful boy I'd ever come across. But right now, I can't afford to be in a relationship. At least not yet. Maybe one day I'll be able to see us together like I was able to for so long, but as for right now, I can't even see tomorrow. I hope you can understand that."
"I do. And I just hope you understand that no matter what you say, you cannot scare me away. I'm not going anywhere unless you want me to."*
Oh, my dear, I've been told that far too many times to know that it's not true.

"why did you kiss me? what were your intentions? i know how i feel and now you know, so i need to know"

Moving on is rarely never not accompanied by sadness and grief.

my parents said yes to you coming and
staying in our home here because
you would like to take me to a
dance this year.

they said "they won't do anything,
because we'll make her sleep in
her mothers room."
but then they said nevermind because
they know they can trust me.

"you can see it in her eyes, all she wants is kisses.
she's made it very clear what she wants and
what she doesn't," my aunt said, thank god.

and now all i can think about is
us sleeping in rooms right by each other but
not being able to hold one another but
somehow finding a way to make it
be possible at 2 in the morning when
nobody is awake.

god, i miss you.

I'd give anything to be
Eighteen right now.
To be
Free to
Do as I please.
To travel,
Not only the world but
The secrets within you.
To be able to
Run my fingers through your
Chest hair.
To be able to
Scream your name countless times.
To be able to
Know you in every possible way.

Why is it that I
Always fall for the older guys and
They do the same too?

I'm just
Not
sure anymore.

I don't need medicine to be okay.
I said.
*right?

I'm just trying to
Forget.

when you kissed me it was like i could breathe a bit easier again

she sought Death on a queen size bed

"salvation and damnation are the same thing."

When she falls asleep
without you by her side
and you miss her more than
you miss Augustus Waters...
Then you know you're in
Love.

Wait until I fall asleep
I'll be gone soon.
My miseries are endless,
I can't seem to find the moon?

Let the stars come up again,
Tell them that I'm here,
Let them know what's going on,
Just don't tell them what I fear.

Make the sun,
Kiss the morning sky.
The birds will awake,
And they will be ready to fly.

Seems like the atmosphere,
Is drowning in my sorrows.
Don't let them feel my prescience,
Today nor tomorrow.

Let them come and find me,
Show them what you've done.
Maybe then they'll see that,
That they're be no rising sun.

What we had before,
Isn't far away form us.
What you see is love,
A love that you can trust.

poor boy...*
can't seem to get his
wants and needs
s
   t
r
   a
i
        g
  h
t
.

he says he needs me,
but we both know that
I'm just a "want"
and nothing
more.

I shouldn't forgive
You, but
I love you
Too much.

Yesterday, I caught myself off guard.
I was singing "Help!" and I laughed to myself.
I saw her standing there and she said,
"I'm suprised you can still sing The Beatles."
I said, "Me too. But just because she's gone, doesn't mean they have to be too."
She asked me what I wanted and I couldn't help but say that I Want to Hold Your Hand. But we don't always get what we want, do we now?
And With a Little Help From My Friends, I think I'll survive this heartbreak, this heartache.
I've been Across the Universe with you, but that was never enough. You still wanted more, and I hope you find it one day, my dear.
For a few weeks, I wanted to Get Back to the way things used to be, but we could never do that no matter how hard we tried.
And I send All My Loving to you, to you, to you.
Maybe I'll find it again someday--love--, but i think it's time to just Let it be.
And I Love Her. I love her dearly. I love her completely and unconditionally. I meant what I said, forever and equally. But it's time. I'm sorry, it's time.

Of course you would know just how to pull me right back down to Earth.

she whispers like the stars
saying an infinite truth
and she kisses like the sun
and endlessly loves
like the moon.

lies make people cold, hard, and stiff.
they make whole people become broken pieces and
they sure as hell only cause more trouble in this already fallen world.

so don't bother lying because
it'll only hurt you more in the
end.

Please make love to me.

Even though our flower died,
We can plant a new seed in hopes
Of a beautiful bloom one day.

rows of strawberries are bleeding like my heart
nothing seems very real since we're apart

I'm afraid to ask anyone to stay now, because humans are fickle beings. We all eventually leave, it's in our very nature.

I was high for so long
that it was only a matter of time before
I came crashing
                            d
                              o
  ­                              w
                                 ­  n
                                      .

No, not a new teacher crush.
Just a very cool teacher who
wants to understand why
I stare at the walls or
laugh while I cry
or why I feel
the need to
be so
perfect.

The sun goes down,
Another day passes by.
Without him around,
Makes me silently cry.

Drowned in my tears,
Drowned in my sorrow.
I hope it's a better day,
When I wake up tomorrow.

Without his eyes,
I can see fear.
But with them,
I can see clear.

Turning back,
Day by day.
Left or right,
Which is the way?

Letting you go,
Was so hard to handle.
But everyone thought,
Our love was a scandal.

To this day,
I do not know.
Left or right?
Which way to go.

sometimes i can still feel your arms around me
but instead of you holding me by my waist
you are now grasping me by my neck
and you are trying to take away what little breath
i have left inside of me.

And today I felt alive.
Like really alive.
Like everything was going to be okay,
Because it will be okay.

and it's about that time,
when kisses become not enough
and touching becomes a need
that burns all the way up your throat
and your fingertips yearn to know
the feeling of someone other than yourself.

We sit down
Take notes
And
The copying begins.

I write everything down
Till my hand starts to ache.
I look over at your set
But then back at mine.
The only difference
Was that I didn't have
Her name
Written all over it.
                                                        On the top.
         On the sides.

                          On the bottom.
Everywhere.

torie
Written in hearts and with
Love.

If only you knew that I
Do the same with yours.

You turned me down
Laughed at me
Looking around
I silently sigh not
Knowing what I'm in
For.

Strange tears, the
Hot one fall down
My cheeks
knowing
That I'll be alone
Without you.

I-say-id-rather-be-with-you-
but-you-are-not-around-
so-imma-call­-somebody-up-
and-see-if-they-be-down-cause-
i-hate-sleeping-alon­e-
i-hate-sleeping-                    
alone

"Be mine?"
I asked,
You cringed in
Fear.

"Why not?"
I dared,
"Tell me?"
I quivered.

You sighed,
Looked at me
And said,
"Shh,
         I'm
              Not
                    Worth
                               Your
                                       Love."

Please, just push me over the end so I don't have to do it myself.

I can't breathe,
I'm choking on you.

Maybe I'm
gone.
Definitely
I'm weak.
You
Tell me things I don't want to hear.
So I
Cease your speak.

Your voice
Like velvet
Smooth
Like your skin.

You always find the parts of me,
Somehow you always win.