I'm starting to learn that you aren't the only beautiful person in the world.

coward

"she doesn't phase me"

how do you turn it all off,
I'm sick of feeling like this.

everything can change in a moment, I can only wish to burn now

would've been a year and a month today,

what does this have to do with anything?

It's all I want.

is this a ******* joke?

But I'd die if I tried.

I'm gonna go see Hozier instead of watching you dance with him.

You're right, I am reckless.

I heard I'm glowing, is it true?

There are so many adventures to go on, I hope I'll be ready soon.

I'm learning how to find the stars in my own eyes.

Let's move on.

Even though our flower died,
We can plant a new seed in hopes
Of a beautiful bloom one day.

My mind says not to eat, because I don't deserve it.
The scale says "good job! You've lost 6 pounds cause you weren't worth it!"
But my body says to eat, as I make food for everyone else but myself.
I think I'm going to listen to my body for once, because being in that dark place again where I always count calories and rarely eat isn't a fun place to be.

I wasn't in love with you,

I've realized that maybe you fell out of love with me because I wasn't in love with myself anymore. I doubted the love you had for me, so it made me doubt the love for myself. It wasn't just you, it was me too.

Everything reminds me of you.
From the toothbrush with an "L" written with sharpie next to mine.
To the drawings that are by you on my wall.
The pictures of us around my room.
The little lion I bought when we went thrift store shopping.
From the diffuser I always tried to keep out for you when you came over.
To the pillow that I always left out of your side of the bed.
And the paintings you've made for me hanging up just under the fake record that you used to ask me to Homecoming this year.
From the many sticks of incense that I haven't burned, but I kept because they made me feel like you were here.
To the records you let me borrow, and now won't take back.
The nail polish you gave me that I wear on my fingers, which everyone says looks amazing on me, but I feel like it's nothing out you.
From the pens you love that I bought for you.
To the silly Sherlock Valentines from this year and last year.
The many pictures on my phone, that are mostly of you.
From the my blanket from my childhood that still smells of you.
To the many calls we've shared, I can't bear to delete that history.
But it would seem that all of our history is slowly deleteing,
Like an old computer whose hard drive is becoming too old and unable to hold all of its files anymore.
Is regaining love as easy as it would seem in the movies?
Hollywood baffles me and makes me believe that I may be able to get you back.
I hope Hollywood is right, because I miss you terribly.
Everything reminds me of you.

There were numbers in our equation and
The numbers were always slightly off but
Surely I had been right,
And put the 1 after the =
And then put 1 + 1 before it, right?
It was 1 + 1 = 1
But you changed it.
Your body changed,
You mind changed,
Your heart changed
And put a 2 behind the =
Which made us into
1 + 1 = 2.
We were one, rhymic, pulchritudinous,
Believed to be the one who lasted forever
Even despite our inability to always add up.
But at the end of everyday,
My equations stayed the same
1 + 1 = 1.
But to you, mine was never right.

If you're happier without me, then I'll go.

I don't want to be of the world anymore.

Oh yes, because your kind of trying was pushing me away and making me feel like ****.

Yep, that's trying.

You're better off without me, maybe everyone else would be too.

You could've talked to me, to give me a heads up.
To tell me that you were feeling that way.
That is what trying is.

Without you
I'll have to learn how to make
Home out of my own arms
Instead of yours.

The Angels cry at the lost of their beloved.
For a dying heart does not mean
That they will enter Heaven soon.
It just means that there is now less
Life in the world.

If you could only keep one promise that you made to me,
then I would beg you to keep the one that preserves your life.

Everything gets worse at night

I am the seed in the always dry soil
that waits for the water that'll never come.

I don't want to hold you down.

Staying or leaving?

"Y'all are such a great team!"

Yeah and that's why we couldn't save our relationship.

It's hard to forget a year worth of love and memories, wouldn't you agree?

You don't have to do it yourself.

Focus on yourself
And I'll do the same
I'll care about you and still ask if you're okay.
But I'm not giving up until
You and I have time to cool down
And really think about this
And what happened.
I love you,
We will Figure this out.
It hurts too much to be the
Best thing for us.

You never could keep your word

What happened to forever ?

You let me drown

" I gave you a part of my soul"

Everybody keeps asking if I'm okay,
Except for you.
You truly don't care,
And that's what hurts the most.
Yes, you love me,
But you don't know how to show it anymore.
Want to know how many times I've cried in the past few days?
Just come look at me for more than two ******* seconds.
Want to know how I'm dealing with this pain?
Im just watching my own heart tear into two while you don't care.
How many text messages have you sent to him in the past few days?
More than our 10 text conversation last night, definitely.
And he's not the problem, it's not about him. It's about you.
Because every single thing has to be about you.
You may not realize it, but it does.
How many times have I been told in the past few days "Leave her, you'll be happier"?
More than the amount of texts you've sent me.
But will I listen to them?
Honestly, i don't know.
Because every time i try to talk to you, You sleep.
And every time I ask to be by you, you say no.
And every time I want to have time to kiss you, you say "I'm taking the stairs".
And every single ******* time I say "I love you", I hear you voice go up to say a measly "I love you". When your voice goes up, it's as if you're telling a lie or saying something without its true meaning anymore. You might think you're good at lying, but you can't hide from me.
Just...do me a favor. Tell me. Tell me you aren't happy. Tell me you don't want to be with me anymore. Tell me, just tell me. I'm losing you and I don't know what to do. You're my love...you're my heart.
I just don't want you to be unhappy. I've cried so much... And every time you ******* off or break your promises or words, I fall apart again and again inside.
Just tell me. Please.

Loneliness is starting to become
Synonymous with my name again.

I'll never forget you.

what she misses isn't her
it's the way she made her
feel on top of the world.