I tried to escape,
Escape the reality,
I tried living in my dreams,
In my bubbly own world,
Doing everything i always wanted to do,

But sometimes it’s hard,
Hard ignoring the reality,
Hard not wanting to hear the truth,

You’ve got to grow up they say..
Face everything, all the bad in this world,
But still i don’t understand,
How a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad?

I will try to be, the best i can be
I will try to be, the bravest you’ll see,
I’ll make sure to try till the day i die...

You are not cursed
For better or worse.
To be able to feel every
Emotional outbursts
Is rather a gift not a flaw.
Feeling every pain,
agony and sorrow
Points you and
In turn, you lead others
In the direction of
The only way, truth and life
That sheds light
in every dark corner,
Delivering all from
The thought of no tomorrow.

I must have erased this
A hundred times
The truth is
I feared loneliness
As it peaked at bedtime

Someone once spent a fortune
Of time on me
Implanting ideas
I'd amount to nothing
"Just wait and see"
I wasn't worthy of love
Something out of my reach
I worked myself to the bone
To earn nothing
Of what was promised or preached
And one day Someone left,
But I've managed to survive
While those poisonous thoughts
Continued to eat me alive

Time does pass
As wounds heal slowly
My loved ones remind me to laugh
And look after me closely
I'm grateful for them
And for guidance from Above
I can fall asleep peacefully
Knowing I am loved

I'm confident
Someone wouldn't recognize me now
I'm stronger, wiser, less lonely
But I don't question how

For you see, the answer's obvious
Granting me tenacity of a fighter
All along, my strength's been within
Loving myself through words on a typewriter

© JL Smith

the day
when i was rejected
when i was wrongly judged
when i was deceived
when the hopes were killed
inside, something died
and
the death was painful yet i survived...

then one day
i chose to forgive
the people for whom i used to live
on whom i truly relied
for me, they died
and
the death was beautiful and i revived...