... is going from bad to worse -
and now
THINGS HAVE NEVER BEEN BETTER!
[15W]
SøułSurvivør
(C) 8/10/2017
It is a truism that the Christian Life is all upside down. What seem to be blessings are actually curses, and extraordinarily hard times are the most blessed.
When you bare up under extremely adverse conditions with grace, it is ONLY due to Jesus's Grace. Prayers get answered, but not ALWAYS for yourself.
My father is giving up. He doesn't want to fight anymore. I can't say I blame him. Anyone who knows my situation knows that my father is dying. I'm going to say it just like that because that is the reality. I'm very fortunate to have had my dad this long. He's 93 years old.
But when he goes there's a problem. I may not have a place to stay. I may have to go into a group home due to my disabilities. I knew this was coming for many years, also. But the reality of it is now hitting me. I won't be able to stay with my beloved mother. We will have to sell the house in order to afford to live anywhere. The upkeep on the house is just simply too expensive for even both my mother and I. Taxes alone in the area where I live are exorbitant. I live by the University of Arizona and property here is at a premium. So this house will not be where I'm living ever again. It's the house I grew up in, and I've called home since 1965.
I have more going on, but I won't burden you with it. I just want to make this point. For all the things happening in my life which are adversities, I am more peaceful and joyful than at almost any other time in my life. Where does this come from?
JESUS.
HE IS keeping and sustaining me! Thank you all for bearing with me during the time of my absence. I want to be with my father as much as possible. And, obviously, I have many other things to do. I appreciate your understanding also that my phone is in disrepair. I can't afford to fix it at this point. But as soon as I am able I will be back out on the site with bells on!
♡♡♡ LOVE YOU ALL! ♡♡♡