23:15 - 19/07/17

State of mind: awe; deep-thought; curious.
Perspective: universal; philosophical.

Thoughts: from conversations - about microcosms and macrocosms. About the uncanny similarities of the small and large of natural phenomena.

Questions: Why can all the cells in the body get along with their differences but humans are incapable of this? If we fear what we do not understand, does that mean love is the path to understanding?

12:30 - 21/07/17

State of mind: nostalgic.
Perspective: personal; spiritual; existential; philosophical.

Thoughts: from memories - of walking along a riverbank, deep into a Welsh forest, the sunshine glowing and dimming, dappled light dancing with the summer colours.

I think I experience true joy and peace in times of solitude and exploration. These times always become strong memories. Ones that can be visited, as if they were never left.

It makes me wonder about those adages that state how if pain is felt deeply, joy also can be felt strongly. But it doesn't end there. We have sensitives, which draw us to the things that make us feel a certain way. They become our habits, if easily obtains. Our dreams, if not.

When, for real, I walk through the dappled light of that Welsh forest, I will be living my dream. But the dream is not the goal, for desire is only an urge. It is when we are there, this place of dreams, that we can comfortably give life to our thoughts and thought to our life.

Questions: Where is the place that gives life to thought and thought to life?

14:40 - 21/07/17

State of mind: nostalgia; sorrow.
Perspective: personal.

Thoughts: from memories - a tribute in remembrance of Chester Bennington from Linkin Park - he made some of the best music I listened to growing up. Mostly from my teenage years.

Words from the last line are derived from their songs Numb and Papercut.

Listening to: Linkin Park.

Questions: why?

10:45 - 25/07/17

State of mind: reflective; thoughtful.
Perspective: personal.

Thoughts: from observations - of myself. Ironically, I am not that observant. When I look at something, the information being perceived is primarily spatial and atmospheric. Visually, things I clock onto quickly are colour and pattern recognition.

So, motion and light effects fascinate me, naturally... This explains how my art style has developed the way it has, over the years. If I start noticing details, it's usually because I'm switched on and thinking about it consciously. Thus, the blur becomes my focus... making sense of what is hard to grasp.

Listening to: Linkin Park - Meteora (album)

Questions: how greatly does the way we perceive contribute to the person we become? How many different perspectives can we see the same thing?

12:50 - 26/07/17

State of mind: playful; curious.
Perspective: comical.

Thoughts: from thinking - about the camera obscura.

'You get the picture' has a double meaning.

Questions: none.

16:30 - 27/07/17

State of mind: focused; thoughtful.
Perspective: personal.

Thoughts: from feeling - loved and cared about. Also from conversations, when Sun mentioned 'taking a leaf out of my book'.

Questions: none

22:50 - 27/07/17

State of mind: pensive; longing.
Perspective: personal; natural.

Thoughts: from feeling - like I miss someone.

Listening to: Linkin Park - My December

Questions: none.

00:00 - 28/07/17

State of mind: pensive; longing.
Perspective: personal; universal.

Thoughts: from feeling - like I miss someone.

Listening to: Linkin Park - Leave Out All The Rest

Questions: none.