i cant relate
to the people around me
who dont care about anything
unless it's about them
I often find myself
angry over things
that happen halfway across the country
I want to shake my friends
and scream
why don't you care?
don't you care about other people
I want to scream to the adults
how can you let this happen
and not give it a second thought
don't you realize
thoughts and prayers
do nothing
the very people
who are supposed to protect us
do not care enough
to do anything

I crave life
I crave life like a child craves their mother
I want so much
I want to experience everything
I want to feel every feeling
I want to walk in golden sunlight
and drink from fresh springs
I want to dance naked in the forest
I want to fall in love
I want to have my heart broken
I want to stay awake for 3 days straight
I want to walk the edge of a cliff
and fall
my heart longs
to be free and wild
but grounded and in control
it swells in my chest
until i cant think
of nothing else
but escape

I think I'm in love
but there's a problem
shes a girl
and so am i
I would be the last person
you'd expect
but I wish to kiss her lips
I wish to trail my finger along her jaw
and more
so much more
I wish to run my hands through her hair
and to press her body against a locker
I wish for soft whispers
warm hands
i wish

I wish someone would read my words
not just read them
but feel them
I wish my words would lift
their soul in ways that
they cannot understand
I wish my words
sent others to different worlds
I wish my words
could transform you
into different people
I wish my words
would give you my experiences
my heartbreak
mistakes
happiness

I’m tired of all back and forth politics
It makes me sick
Like spring
When the pollen hits
Words get manipulated
Bend like contortionist
How unfortunate
That we speak the same language
But entirely different dialects
This is not a test
And if it was
The answer wouldn’t be no or yes
Fill in the blanks
To what you think is best
No wrong answer
So you try to guess
No wrong answer
But your Incorrect

I will go to college this fall
I will be the first one to ever do it
and by first I really do mean
first
I'm nervous and excited
to have a dorm
and make friends
fall in and out of love
study
I still haven't found myself
I'm hoping
that by the end of my 4 years
I'll have figured out