Holly

Holly Mar 2016

If yelling at her in an argument doesn't make your throat burn like you just downed 6 shots,
you don't love her.
If her eyes can't make you stop in your tracks and think about what you're about to say next,
you're not in love with her.
If her laugh doesn't make you tense up your knuckles thinking about never hearing it again,
you're not in love with her.
If her voice can't calm you're worst anxiety attacks and makes you want to listen to anything she has to say,
you're not in love with her.
If her smile doesn't make you're chest quake and your lungs shrink but feel refreshed all in one motion,
you're not in love with her.
If her taking off her clothes is when you pay the most attention to her, you're not in love with her.

Holly Mar 2016

People

People like you,
The good people,
They always die.

And the bad people,
They do too.

But the weak people,
Like me.

We have inherit
The Earth.

Holly Mar 2016

Risk Your Life.

You step outside,
You risk your life.
You take a drink of water,
You risk your life.
And nowadays you breathe,
And you risk your life.
Every moment now,
You don't have a choice.
The only thing you can chose,
Is what your risking it for.

Holly Mar 2016

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Sometimes it's good to be scared.
It means you've still got something to lose...

Holly Mar 2016

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If you get a chance, Take it.
If it changes your life, Let it.
Nobody said it'd be easy,
They just promised that it'd be worth it.

Mar 2016

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you dont understand that leaving is the right thing to do.
that i have to, in order to cause you minimal pain.
the pain that i would cause by staying and continuing to hurt you would build up to be more than the pain i will cause by leaving.

my last relationship i ****** up and honestly i dont even know how i did it. the one person who loved me truly and purely, i pushed away for you and then you left and im not so sure what to do anymore.

your sister wrote down something and shared it anonymously but i knew who it was... i knew. and it hurt me, and made me think that if i leave and i fail, my sister will be in your sisters place. so i need to leave and i need to do it fast, and soon.

you dont understand my reasons but i know that someone someday someone will read this and know exactly why.

my mother doesnt really love me, and i dont know what the **** my father is to me. my step mom is overbearing and wont leave me alone...

my granddaddy told me days ago that i was his reason for living. i wish he hadnt told me that.

i have lost a lot of my friends... im stupid and i dont know why i do or say things. one of my cousins hates me, and i pretend to hate them too.

i could have been friends with my ex but i ****** that up.

i have all of these valid reasons in doing this. and still im a ******* coward and wont leave.

im overthinking.

so ill write. to everyone, and once i am finished, ill leave.

ill tie up all the lose ends, maybe ill even do it up in a nice little bow.

Mar 2016

effaced

*******

your name is everywhere and i ******* hate it.
i hate you.
i hate what you've done to me.
you convinced me you loved me,
and then you left.
and i see you everywhere now,
and every time i think of you,
suicide comes into mind.
are you proud of what you've done?