I can't even ******* breathe
Could I get some help
Some aid right here?
Tell me a location
A doctor

I swear, I'll do anything
Just get me to breathe
Put me on the system
Get me on pills

Just get me to breathe again

Where pirates used to hunt for gold and burried treasures under the ocean
where waves dash against the beach of time where time is infinite and forever
where time never fades
where palm trees hang their lacy green leaves which provide shade
for all who sit upon this beach and few people live in this tropical paradise
but I sit here on the sandy beach and could forever
seashells all around me lie on this tropical beach
and I am just so content to watch the waves washing against the shore
and I gaze up to the rocky island cliffs which hold the beautiful
lacy palm trees which are my favourite of all
and hibiscus flowers are soaking in the beauty of the bright sun
little fishes beneath the ocean where pink coral and sea-green seaweed grow
while the sunrays hit below the ocean
little mossy pebbles and gems are beneath the pretty ocean
dolphins hop and dive back under the deep blue ocean
there they run and hide to escape the cruel teeth of sharks

*~Marian~

I see you
Seeing me see you
I can see us
See sawing at the park
I'm not sure
But I think, maybe
I want to take you there
It will never happen though
Because I'm too shy
You must think I'm awkward

Sigh.
This is hard.


My eyes are getting heavier with each passing day and the boy I see in the mirror
looks almost like a man.
Almost.

I am thankful for all the unkind words.
They made me strong and they made me carefree.
But when the lights go off and piano notes dance around my room the sheets feel lonely and my room feels cold.
When I close my eyes, my fingers are running along your cheek and my lips are brushing your nose.
You're not here.
I don't even know...

who
you
are.
But I hear myself whisper your name.

I know that somewhere in the universe, pieces of our souls flown through lonely tears and childhood wishes are are dancing with one another in the rain.
...kissing after dinner...
..making love after a fight...

I am so madly in love with you and I have no idea who you are.
Whether you even exist at all yet or whether I pass you every day.

I make no promise that I will caress your skin.
I make no promise that I will hear you laugh.
I make no promise that I will ever find you.


But I promise to always keep looking,
so keep your eyes open too...



With all my love whoever you are,

Joshua Haynes

You tore my veins open but left the blood pouring from my skin.
I clawed at you for years but never really made it in.
You broke your promise to bandage every scar you made.
I sold my heart to you but you never even paid.
You said you’d always be here
but now I’m watching as you disappear.