sometimes its not worth it
love isn't worth the risk
when you try for love
and the infatuation only lasts for a while

its not worth it in the end
the heart-wrenching pain you feel after
lasts so much longer than the happiness

i knew it wasn't worth it
but i gave it a shot anyways

are you going to let him destroy you?
use you?
he has manipulated you
he is the poison you've been drinking
its time for rehab

I was unprepared for your lack of self-awareness
and the way you approach life like a
kid running the wrong way with the ball
Sometimes I feel like your mother
sending you to your room so you can tantrum
Other times I feel like your daughter
when you lay out my pill as if I can’t take it myself
There is a difference between being creative and indecisive
between sensitivity and overreacting
You have to find who you are, and stop lifting so many lids
your anxious energy is clinging to my calm like a parasite
eventually, you need to find a calm of your own
take your spinning outside inward, where things are still
I want to help you, and I will, because I love you
but rarely, rarely, do I feel like your lover
partly because I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want your touch, I don’t want your kiss
your hands are annoying me, please let me sleep
I don’t want to gag and choke on your tongue
just rest for a while, so I can figure out how to do this

You slithered in at an awful time
I was lonely
My hands shook
Begging to be touched
So you took advantage,
You found your way into my mouth
Then slowly down to my trembling legs
You slithered right in
and stole my innocence

the problem is I can't.
I can't trust anyone.
I have issues going across railroad tracks without making sure once, twice, three times that a train isn't coming.
when I muster up courage to look in a full body mirror, which isn't often, I check my reflection five times to make sure a scar isn't visible.
when I read ten word poems, I count each and every word seven times.
so why would I trust him when there is no proof to check nine times?