Darkness has come
as I feared
and it hides
all the stars from me

I am looking out
the window
and I try
to reach you

No response
you are gone
and I know
life goes on

To my star out there
in the darkness of night
I am still here
call me if you want

I dance with
body electric
blue and
sliding,

Let me
teach you:

Yoncé flexin
-*******,
*******-
hands up
hips rolling
like loaded
dice

Song over.

9-5 just
to stay alive
another month

You sir, working in your garden
With your leather laugh wrinkled face
Calloused hands steady to the ***
God loving salt of the earth soul
You are my brother

You my lady, tending to your family
With your silver locks of hair
Portraits on the wall
Rocking chair tales of innocence (lost)
Untold secrets that will remain
Untold
You are my sister

He who walks down Bond Road limping
Broken banjo string strumming
Songs of the mother land singing
Tepestuous youth smiling
He is my brother

She who hides in the shadow
Licking incestuous wounds inflicted
Untrusting broken open heart that
Bleeds nightly
She is my sister

You are all angels of light to me
And I love you

Finding a heart so fair that I couldn't bare to see it go through despair
I declare that I was unfair, but don't you dare go compare our perfect pair, pinky swears and nights shared to a facade that was never there
You may not like it but we were the turtle and the hare
We shared something that was debonair no doubt that I doubted what was there
I don't think we ever broke we just bent beyond what we attended or meant
Contents of a letter, a letter of intent, my letters sent, intent to deliver intended to repent
Where went the time spent on making that man in the mirror more than just a reflection
I can still see an act put on by an actor your projection of me being self centered while you sit center stage taking stage directions like a show pony this is where I say uh *******
Just kidding but you have to admit that was good to some sort of degree, do you remember me the parts that were touched by the Florida beach, dead sea and that tree we carved our names into
Those things were tried and true I run through these deja vu moments more and more and i've finally had my break through

Tell me about a fellow, who played the guitar or something similar,
How he starved playin' night and day,
The way he didn't have enough to eat,
Tell me about his technique,
If I were to try it, you'd keep me quiet wouldn't you?
You say he died young but lives on through the unique melody he brought you and I, but back in those days he was told to play a different way, the same thing would happen today! I tell you,
The same thing would happen today...

October 31, 2014
"we shouldn't have done this. if your brother finds out, he'll beat my *** and send you with your mom."

and that's how it began. Our story. The way we stumbled into my room, after we got your tattoo, and we laid on my bed talking about life. my heart felt like it was going to explode Then, you kissed me and we intertwined.

November 2, 2014
"i think we should keep doing this. you liked it. i liked it. it was good. we just can't tell anyone about this."

November 15, 2014
"please, don't get use to me. I'm destructive."

November 28, 2014
"do you want to sleep over?"

December 12, 2014
"you and me, we are a team. We're like Bonnie and Clyde."

December 31, 2014
"i was losing hope before you came into my life and i want to tell you that i am so happy that you entered it. even if it was towards the end of the year. we will be able to spend this new year together. Luv you, Bonnie"

January 2, 2014
"i'm stupid. I'm stupid for telling you to not get use to me, when i got use to you."

January 14, 2015
"please don't go, stay longer."
"i could wake up to you every day. you're so **** beautiful."

A love song**

          C              
Your blue eyes
                  F                G
And your raspberry lips
         C
Your beautiful thighs
                F         G                   C
And the sweet taste of your kiss

         C
Your hair
         F             G
Feels just like fur
                  C
And your existence
                   F                G        C
Makes the rest of the world a blur


  Am                   F         C
I never want to let you go
  G                   F              C
I just want to hold you ti-i-ight.
            Am
In my arms
              F     G       C
For the rest of the night


                C
You're so handsome
        F              G
And talented too
                  C
And your smile
                 F              G                   C
Makes it clear that it is me and you

          C
Your hands
           F           G       C
Takes care of me so well
           C
And I can't help
        F          G                           C
That I'm enchanted by your spell


  Am                   F         C
I never want to let you go
  G                   F              C
I just want to hold you ti-i-ight.
            Am
In my arms
              F     G       C
For the rest of the night

Noose
If I dared let it slip,
I can't,
I mustn't,
I cannot risk causing explicit trauma,
to those who care enough,
who try with all their might no matter how rough to free me,
from this indefinite strain,
and despite these bruises I promise to try my hardest,
I will not let my thoughts,
collapse.
Regardless of every wave of panic that ripples itself through my nervous system and leaves me void of breath,
I promise to try my hardest,
I will not let my framework snap.**

I'll try.


This necklace is too pretty to surrender.

I want to hold you.
You and I together are belonging.
That's right, you see the light.
You make my life bright.
Every night you make it alright.
You are my knight.
So charming & polite.
Think of people to invite.
Be my guest.
To my invitation say "yes".
Excited & delighted. Joy is ignited.
Ending the night we fighted.
Anger is always misguided.
The peanut brittle I bited.
You are out of sight.
Remember your rights.
Height can be a fright.
I need to write, review, revise, & recite.