It's terrifying to watch her chest rise and fall
It's like she's not taking in any air at all
She lives and breathes like it doesn't matter if she dies
And behind her smiles and reassurance, there's sorrow in her eyes
She says she's fine and sometimes I think she might be
But if you look at  her closely, a broken girl is all you'll see
Her eyes are green and I think it suits her in a morbid way
Because her eyes are filled with envy when they watch other's happy smiles every day
When she tells me that it doesn't hurt anymore, I can see her hands shake
And when she falls into a dreamless sleep, I can hear her heart break
She walks through the streets with her head held high
But I think she just likes imagining being somewhere over the rainbow, past the grey sky
She's barely held together and fragile as can be
And the hardest part of it all is that she is me.

I am 17
An average teen age girl
I hangout with friends
and I'm dating a football player

Just like any other 17 year old
I have a cell phone
And yes I jump up and down
Every time I get a new follower
On any social site I have an account on

And just like any other 17 year old
I forgot the meaning of life
In fact I don't think I knew life had a meaning

I was born into a life filled with four things
Greediness
Technology  
Money
And Selfishness

In this life
That I was so unfortunately born into
We pay more attention to a new tweet
Than to the loving man whom created us

In this life
We worry more about a new instagram follower
Than too a mother dyeing with cancer
And instead of reading the word of God to a dyeing mother
We check to see if we have a new snapchat

In this life
People call themselves Christians
And they don't even go to church

Open your eyes
Do you see that darkness surrounding your life?
Turn that to light
Read the Bible
Instead of twitter
Keep up with our creator
Instead of a follower

ज़िन्दगी..........
ज़िन्दगी की ईस राह पर, मैंने चलना सिखा है,
कंकड हो या पत्थर हो ,मैने दौड्ना सिखा है,
मुश्किले तो आती है ज़िन्दगी के हर मोड पर,
हार के बाद भी,मैने जीतना सिखा है......

तु जितना चाहे रोक ले, रुकेगा ना ये बंदा,
चाहे तु गले मे डाल दे, ये फाँसी का फंदा,
हर मुस्किल से टकरायेगा,जीवन के हर इक मोड पर,
ना झुकेगा ये सिर कभी,चाहे हो कोइ फरिंदा....


जीवन के हर मोड पर ,मैंने खाये धोखे है,
ज़िन्दगी के नियम भी, बहुत ही अनोखे है,
हर मोड पर तु आता है,अपना खौफ दिखाने,
ईक दिन मै वापस आऊँगा,अपनी पहचान दिखाने...

कोइ ना सहारा इस दुनिया में,जबसे होश सम्भाला है,
ना जाने क्या किस्मत मेरी,अब क्या होने वाला है,
ज़िन्दगी के ईस पहलु मे,मैने देखे कुछ सपने है,
कर जाऊँगा पुरा ईक दिन ईसे,क्योकि ये मेरे अपने है...........

A part of me is falling for you: my tears.