I'm sorry that I blew my last chance. Please know that our love will always be my favorite romance.

When I would tell you all of my lies. You could always see thru my deceiving eyes. And into my troubled soul. If only I looked at yours I would have seen how much all my damage was taking its destructive toll.

I'll never understand why all those times I made you cry. Or the reason with every night I was sure to start a fight.

In my heart I knew what I was doing was so wrong. All you did was love me all along. I dont blame when you finally chose to leave. I needed and deserved to sit alone and grieve.

But I could never imagine even after all this time apart. You would be the only one I trust to give my broken heart.

So many emotions I struggle to get off my chest. I fear this eager tugging waiting to put my will to the test.

Every hour thru out the day and all the way into the night. Im battling this addiction. Something I never thought I would have to fight.

As I hold my head in constant shame there is no one but myself to blame. For all the heart ache and pain. Or how I nearly drove my family insane.

This is all my fault. How I wish this bad dream would come to a hault. Oh how I wish I never made this damning choice. I pray for the day this addiction ends and my family and I can all rejoice.

I held her under the moon lit sky. In my arms so close to me. All around us the summer breeze blowing wild and free.

I would hold her face close to mine. Oh how I yearned to stop the hands of time. Thru the night sky the stars would shine. Gazing into her lovely eyes I could not believe she was mine.

Staring up at our our brightest star just two loving souls entwined. Wanting nothing more than to run a way and leave our troubles far behind.

As the end of summer grew so near the nights got shorter and far between. Sometimes I go back to that lonesome scene. Me sitting there all alone gazing out into the night just wondering why it was only myself staring up at the big dark summer sky.