“could you please
pretend that nothing happened
release me from my past as it is holding down my present”

“could you please
pretend that nothing happened
let me see the goodness in others without letting grief set in”

“could you please
pretend that nothing happened
erase all of my bias towards life being pleasant”

“could you please
pretend that nothing happened”

i tell the world with tears in my eyes
because nothing can erase it

i remember your
voice
like it’s a
butterfly

i wont let it
fly, fly  
away


i remember your
touch            
like it’s a                      
ghost

i wont let it                          
float, float                  
away


i remember your        
perfume        
like it’s a                      
fog

i wont let it                        
drift, drift                    
away


i remember your
love
like it’s a
parasite

i wont let it
go, go
away

i thought you forgot about me


because when you were walking
i felt my heart bleed
so i pretend to be busy
my instincts said to flee

i didn’t want to walk next to you there
that has happened before
hand in hand, you told me you care
you let me swim in your warm soul

i raised my gaze
on instinct my eyes find you
and you’re looking at me through the haze
it’s so crazy that it doesn’t feel true


i thought you forgot about me
and all we had

you were such a beacon of light
i wish that you could hold me tight
just like you used to
and when i replay it, i remember exactly what it was like

the sting of your perfume and the soft ends of your crimson hair
you were always there
your golden necklace that always matched your piercings
i sob whenever i think of our ending

no i never had romantic feelings for you
but there was so much about me that you knew
i desperately craved your love
it felt like a drug

you are the time i mentioned starving myself for a better body
you let me ruin your white dress because my eyes were cloudy
i cried into your shoulder while all you did was hold me
you were late to period 7 because you wanted to support me

you are the time i said that i wish i was never born in the start
you said that that shattered you heart
i grasped your hand as you said that you were there
i couldn't believe that you truly cared

you were the light of my life
i would think about you all night
but you said everything would be okay
and i think that that’s the only lie you’ve ever told me

i do not understand why it had to turn out this way

well i do-

but i still dont

I                                                             CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
SHE                                                      ­ CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
HE                                                       ­  CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
THEY                                                    C­ANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
XE                                                       ­  CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
MY MOM                                            CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
MY DAD                                              CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
MY BROTHER                                    CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
MY BEST FRIEND                              CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
MY THERAPIST                                 CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING
EVERYONE                                         CANT STOP ME FROM FEELING

BUT YOU?
YOU                                                     CAN    STOP ME FROM FEELING