If it wasn't for the love from above I wouldn't have found my dove whom I'll always protect
We're closed on the same circuit feeling the static of the electricity as our hearts connect
We've had our ups and downs and I don't care what anyone says your flaws are what make you the person I love
You're the only reason I'm still able to walk on my feet I'm the foul ball that landed in the mitts of your glove
People always change in mysterious ways, but jinkies I'd rather sit back and solve all your mysteries
If anyone was to ever lay a hand on you I might go berserk and surgically strike back with a hundred different bistouries
People say its hopeless to think things will last forever but I believe anything will go far as long you have the ability to believe
We have so many obstacles lying ahead of us and when life decides to throw heavy blows we'll just bob and weave
We were just ordinary people with no sense of direction but we're learning and slowly growing
I'm glad that I've found you, No! There's no word that can express why I'm better off knowing
That I have someone that I can always protect, care for, look after, love and share every emotion
I'll be with you to the end with the love of my life standing behind me through thick and thin through all the drama and commotion
They say behind every great man stands a great woman and you're the one who takes that position in my life
With any enemy that heads in our direction you'll be the big machine and I'll be covering you from above, I'll be the snipe
I know that If I had taken that left turn I don't know where I would've been tonight
Nothing can change the way I feel about you and there's no one who can stop me from giving you my undivided love Mrs. Right

The words I speak aren't the words I mean
Only making whats on the inside sound like a dream
The actions I pursue are nothing else but a blessing and a curse
I make it seem like its all fun and games until it ends up getting worse
I struggle to show people the real me
So I separate myself and I like an apostrophe
I take leaps without the cord attached but I plunge futher and further to my death
With the way I act and the life I lead I feel like I might breathe my last breath
Don't mind the ******* you see on a day to day basis who keeps who he is lurking in the shadows
But try to look beyond that wall to see the determined young man who wants nothing more but to help those who continue to suffer and carry all those logos
Why is it that no one can look past the act and for once take me seriously when I ask for the chance
Because some day I'll just wanna sing like David sang and dance like David danced
I hide who I am because no one can comprehend whether I'm being delusional or the person they see in the end
I act stupid, but only to see a smile on the face of someone who couldn't take it anymore, for someone who couldn't turn to any other friend
I don't regret my actions but I either pity and own them or believe that this is something I want to continue
But now I realize I must make some changes to my schedule and create a new agenda so I can leave my venue
Don't get me wrong I still wanna have fun with all the fun and games but right now I'm just tired of feeling ashamed
Because each time it drives me further and further to becoming a young man who's lost the meaning of his name
If it were so easy I would show the person living on the inside and the person I aspire to be
I pray to God that I don't lose who I am because that's the one thing I hold dear and closest to me
I'd rather let out the person hiding on the inside trying to make who he really is known, but thats only if I could
Because I can't stay quiet, I want people to know that I'm tired of being Misunderstood

My body's slipping off the deep end while my mind is trying to climb a ladder that's been sabotaged
All because I slipped up from the right path and now the devil's trying to attack me along with his entourage
My lens used to be crystal but now light reaches nowhere near my retina leaving my eyes opaque
And every word I utter I begin to regret because its only giving me a toothache
I look back along the lines trying to retrace my steps only to see all these mistakes
Noticing that there is so much sin stacked up that I'm running out of clean plates
But now that I know where I went wrong must back to a go perilous journey that only seems like a loop hole
Because I start to fix myself back to normal but only to realize I'm only moving further away from my goal
Its pointless trying to fix a record that's been scratched and can only keep replaying back
The same old lines that stop me from reaching the end of the track
And now I'm just trying to find the perfect mixture to cancel out the darkness lying within my mind
Because no matter how much warnings I get I always try to dodge the signs
And fall into the enemy's trap straying me away from the sacred message that I held dear
Leaving to live me with one terrifying fear
Which is the fear that I can never return to the right path and that I'll always live alone
Now I must wait and all my joy must be postponed
Because the undying sadness lying within me never seems to leave
Which is the reason why I can never com-promise myself and the life I grieve
With all these problems making my eyes weep
I know I'm On The Edge Of A Promise I Can't Keep

One's heart can only take so much damage, but somehow endures a catastrophe
Everyone's like the letters in contractions so close together but I'm always that last letter spaced out and set apart by an apostrophe
I have so many frames with canvases turning black and blue while the red seeps threw my veins and out my body
And each frame has several cracks waiting to create a big trench that either makes me seem depressed or shoddy
But it all could've been avoided if I had stopped trying to fill the void with a another human being that seemed to understand
The way I felt and who I was but in the end that relationship just seems to be nothing more than contraband
As I eagerly await a future of hope rather than despair
The cracks continue to deepen themselves because I know nobody's there
And it pains me the most because I now realize I was destined to be alone
Since there really is no hope of finding my true home
I just sit back allowing that fragile glass to break
As depression drives me away from love turning my eyes opaque
And the thought hits me that I every time I said "These emotions that awake"
It turned out to be these emotions that were fake
I hold nothing but a vacuum-like glass vase in between my rib cage with a giant whole sitting on top
And its just moments away from losing its handles and ending up like humpty dumpty after his drop
The smile that brightens my face only darkens my blood
Holding in these insidious emotions, forming a tsunami, ready to flood
I just feel as if I should ease the pain away but there's nothing sharp enough in the drawer
Because there's nothing but darkness settling in my core
I've made one bad decision which lead to a whole life of painful judgement
Now my life needs to be fixed but there's no way to make any adjustments
I've never had a drink but I might ease the pain away with a sip of Henny
Because my heart is about to shatter into One Piece Too Many

Ha, I laugh because the person I loved seems like nothing more than a mere artifact
You claimed to love me but what was the point in saying words you knew you would take back
I can't believe I fell for it again fell for anther trick
But lemme ask you something was it worth ******* my former friend's ****
Seriously you kissed him but I got over that and tried to work things out
Until I found out he had his itsy bitsy spider climbing up your water spout
What I don't understand is you made me feel like **** when I was the victim being played
Now I realize the search for my soulmate is just like waiting in an airport when your flight gets delayed
What's so funny is you came to your senses apologized and asked to start over
But the closest you'll be is a friend because I'm not asking you to come over so don't think this is red rover
I mean how much damage do you think a human's heart can take
What, do you believe a simple sorry makes things better once you let it shatter and break
You know, I was willing to be with you for the rest of my life even though we broke up so you could deal with your issues
But you left me alone in the dark kleening up with my best friend who always gave me tissues
The fact that you were the first person I loved makes it even harder to get it out of my mind
Because you have my heart ripped up, torn apart, feeling like the aftermath of Columbine
I was willing to die for you and I was willing to give you all I had
But right now I'm sure as hell glad
That you showed yourself and took the mask off that you never revealed
Right now I'm feeling stupid for believing you because I know wasn't the only grain of grass in your field
The fact that you asked to start over is what got under my skin
Because you ****** my boy and now it's bringing the true anger from within
I always tried to help you and I gave you my all
You could go to China and realize the list of things I was willing to do for you was longer than the Great Wall
Every time I look back the memories of me and you are cremated, turned into ashes and dust
Now I look up to God and ask myself who can I really Trust?

Once a lifeless soul thinking death was the only way out
Each problem hit me harder and harder like the rear end of a trout
A little boy searching for the sharp end to impale his torn up heart
Because his pain kept piling up like the items in a shopping cart
He was so feeble but yet he kept trying to search for that last bit of determination
As he went nights watching his mother suffering from the pain and agony of constipation
He had a father who's main goal seemed like making him feel aggravated
Always telling him he's stupid beating him up over grades and when he succeeded he still didn't make him feel motivated
He grew up with too much food to eat off his plate
Always wishing he could meet his grandfathers who could've impacted his life although he knew it was too late
He was slandered by the words they threw at him like the lunch in a cafeteria food fight
But through it all he knew that one day he'd be destined to open up his wings and take flight
He knew that he'd be destined for great things as he was told by the Lord
He knew one day that he could share his story and help everyone sing their songs in one accord
He kept on pushing and fighting with his shield from Christ
And he was willing to take the risk if it could benefit others no matter how big the price
He knew that he'd be drawing people out the darkness whenever their skies were overcast
Because he knew that one day he'd be telling this Story From The Past

She is my strength, my happiness, my joy
She's the only one I'll ever love she's real not fake not a decoy
I can't imagine what the future would be like if she left so soon
My heart would be dried up like a desert and lost in a dune
Everytime I'm near her my heart starts pounding and I can feel the warmth her smile projects around the room
She's the only one I'll ever care for and I'll never let go of the scent of her sweet perfume
She's the light that defeats my darkness and the empress that sits on my throne
She's my cinderella, the one whom I can call my own
It doesn't matter what ups and downs there are I can endure every mood swing
I'm just waiting for the next few years when I can pop out the question and pull out the ring
I'm looking forward to the years ahead of us as we make new memories
Our love is like a chemical change unbreakable no one can reverse our chemistry
She's the book that keeps me wrapped up always wanting more
She is the one and only Passion I Live For