I'm graduating and although I should be happy my eyes can only see tears
Why is it that I'm leaving the only people who helped cure the pain I had for so many years
I don't know what to do now, I thought it was only going to be smiles and energetic cheers
But was I wrong, now there's a blurry window blocking eyes and all I feel is the chills and scares
Why do we have to say goodbye can't there be another way
For us to stay together, but I must accept the fact as much as it pains me to say
Goodbye to you all, I've never known people as heart warming as those I've met in our last days
Now time is too short and with only 4 days left together you all go off while I stay
I get left behind while they head off but we all begin to embark on new journeys
I hope I don't have to see anyone hitching a ride to the hospital on a gurney
Some of you may become doctor's, athletes, fashionistas or maybe even attorneys
And some of you might star on television like Bert and Ernie
I have few things I want to tell you although this might sound absurd
I love each and every last one of you because you were there for me like a mother cares for her birds
I want each every last one of you to strive for your best and reach for the top not second or third
Remember my voice as we depart because these are My Final Words

You've been there since the start, you gave me birth
And you went days without to feed us and for what its all worth
I love you because you never left my side
You always stood your ground and protected us when there was high tide
You are the only person I was ever able to count on when there was no shoulder
I was able to walk freely down the path because you crushed every boulder
Without you my tears would never dry
You always picked me up when I fell and would cry
I love you so and no word can ever define
Such a strong powerful and encouraging woman who's love is so divine
No matter how much you're knocked down you still stand to your feet
You've crossed every road and walked on every street
If I lost you I wouldn't know who I am
But if I did I would cherish our memories instead of turning them into spam
You gave us love like no other to me, my sister and brother
I have so much to say, you're the greatest that's why I Love You Mother

I really thought I had gotten rid of it for good
I let all this sadness make its way back into my life when I should
Be keeping a positive attitude without anyone knowing whats behind the smile
Its all returning all the sorrow and its seems so similar to when I was once a child
This emotion just seems to become visible once more after so many years
I never thought it would return making feel like I'm at the bottom of the stairs
Oh how I wish I could make it disappear
But I just sit here watching every tear
Slide down my face like a river of blues
I might not be a drinker but I feel like to relieve it all I need some *****
Everyone is leaving but now I have no one to fly around with
And all the memories we shared seem to good to be true like a legend or a myth
If I wasn't so shy she would've known by now
But my heart is locked, only she can open it, no one else knows how
Do you all consider me to be a friend or just another plug
You guys are my loved ones who took all the lemonade out my jug
How do I go off to college knowing I'm leaving the first set of people I could call friends behind
Without any of you in my life I don't have an identity I can't be defined
Why does my life have to turn back to its usual gloom
My shyness will block out anyone new I meet sending me to my own doom
I wish I had more time with everyone especially her
Especially when I'm apart of a family who's love always gets deeper and deeper
With prom coming so close I have no date and everyone "wants to be taken"
Its not like I want to make you my girlfriend or let my emotions awaken
Why is it so hard, why can't I find a date
I don't want to show up sad and lonely, please appear before its too late
I wish I had more time to renew my last session
Because these are all the things that takes me Back To My Depression

I was always considered to be an outcast in this world because I wasn't so instrumented
My problems used to be minor until they became major and made my mind feel so demented
It was just a matter of time until my soul became diminished
And all my Beethoven dreams turned flat and were finished
I used to hang with the wood winds while I got beat up by the percussion
I've never had a melody come by perfectly without any interruptions
I used to spend my days down in the dumps feelin the blues
With every rhythm that passed by I never got inspired never found my muse
I had so many notes I couldn't get out because my voice always went unheard
Each day was like the other, it was just a matter of time before they all became slurred
As hard as I tried I couldn't relieve
All the sharps that took my breath away made me unable to breve
I always tried to stay within the bar lines but I was always a low key
I was always lost and confused I was like the bars with no melody
My life was like the flight of the bumblebee perilous and long
And I wasn't brassy I was frail not strong
But today my rift is on point no more notes have to be smuggled
Now that you know these were my long forgotten Musical Struggles