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Jun 2017 NV

Devan McLain

This is where you lift me up
Just so I have farther to fall
The harder I hit the ground, the further into the mud and grime I will sink
And that is where I will stay, if you have any say about it

You don't, though, do you?
I am the one who dictates my own thoughts. The hauntings and memories of a past life whisper to me sweet nothings that will keep me in this ground, under here where I am safe and sound from the challenge of the world
But I will leave nothing behind me in life because that is exactly what the memory of you is to me.
Nothing.
You will never win. You never did.
You didn't trap me like you promised that night so long ago, you couldn't make me stay to accompany your orchestra of pitifully arranged mind tricks you thought would hold me.
I am something more than you and your lies will never be, I am whole.

#something #nothing #past #control #you #lost #i #win

Jun 2017 NV

Asymptotes

Jun 2017 NV

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Asymptotes

I miss you,

every day a bit less
but I still do.

It's like an asymptote,
closer and closer to 0.

But never 0.

#math #missing #loss

Jun 2017 NV

Pale Butterflies

Jun 2017 NV

Tammy Cusick

Pale Butterflies

And without you I'd be blue,
Dead in the face staring onto You,
With your eyes so pale deeper than my soul,
You are the one,
my embodied whole.

Kissing my lips across the crevass of your wings,
I'd tell you my secrets if only you could keep it,
Flowing down into sequenced eyes,
The arms that have held you i truly despise.

Many of times I've died alone,
But you make this interminable coffin feel like a home.
Down inside the silk of your skin,
You're my happiness,
You're my sin.

Cascading down in that intoxicating grin,
The devil in You,
Let. Me. In.

You are my nature,
Pure and Devine,
Into your heart I, intwine.
Flowing down into your fragile wings,
Who knew the color of my life with would be a pale quiet queen.

Jun 2017 NV

Vacant

Jun 2017 NV

Free Bird

Vacant

When you give a person a part of your heart, you never truly get it back

It's theirs to do with as they please,
To treasure or to crack

But what happens when there aren't any
pieces left to give

When you've scraped out the last bit you had, & the outcome wasn't positive

Now your chest is bare & your mind is full
Of all the could have beens

While your heart is roaming from place to place, underneath other people's skin

Jun 2017 NV

mirrors

Jun 2017 NV

Emma Katka

mirrors

living in nostalgia filled wanderings
& a guilt that creeps under my skin in agony
what grand expressions
could ever take that **** away?
it's a part of me, it's a tick in me
not capable of going away...

but it can be accepted
or stay rejected
and infected
and directed to attack
only when I want my old self back

and

I could give honest explanations
to the people that deserve them
but so much time has passed
I understand why they wouldn't want one
because I wouldn't want one either...
I'm already convinced that you're the sinner
and I'm not a saint who knows you better
but I wouldn't have done what you did to me, either...

and

I'm lonely
I know I make myself that way
I shake it off every night
and wake up to it every day

I'm not afraid of my demons,
they look like yours,
only this time I can see them...
they move in the shadows
that I formed myself to free them

Jun 2017 NV

It still hurts

Jun 2017 NV

Ravanna Dee

It still hurts

Grief doesn't change,
just because relations do.

It doesn't matter if you're a best friend, or a parent, or a cousin; when you lose someone dear to you, it still hurts.

Jun 2017 NV

Anxiety

Jun 2017 NV

Tiffany Merkel

Anxiety

Some days:
To simply be alive is courage itself.

#anxiety #badday #panic

Jun 2017 NV

smoke

Jun 2017 NV

sky isabelle

smoke

the world is full of
second-hand smoke
in the form of
violence
hatred
cruelty
and i try not to breathe it in
yet if it's going on
right next to you
there's nothing you can do
so i inhale deeply
and pray
the toxins don't go
to my brain