She had no idea,
was probably totally
******* clueless
what she did to me,
using me for such selfish
wonderful behavior.
Christ, she treated me like
I was her savior
savoring me.

My whole life it seems
I've been trying
to piece things together,
this love of certain sensations,
craving for sweet acts,
my attraction to primal tastes.

And it feels like her
beautiful disease
has lingered
with me
my whole lifetime.

O yes, I'm afflicted,
addicted to her ways
& I have yet
to find a cure
for my burning desire.