They say God only throws obstacles that he knows you can subvert.
But they don't see how much you lose trying to fight those demons.
How much you coerce yourself into not giving in.
Not giving up.  
How much you must stipulate your propensity just to appear resilient.
Just to not give up.
How much love you diminish to end up apathetic, almost sinister.
To not give up.
I have been fighting the same demon since I was 5.
But how must one conquer the battle if the opposing wont show up?
How must I fight when I hunt the hunter?
How can I not give up when surrender is not an option?
Perhaps this is not a battle I must fight.
To vanquish this cynical demon, incessant brawls are not on the road to victory.
Maybe this obstacle, in the shape of a reverent figure, is a demon I fight to battle myself mentally.
God does only create demons he knows you can beat.
But he never says how the battle must endure.