I'm confused I mean not really but I am like I mean i love this girl But my heart doesn’t know what it wants Like this is our 7th time together And it’s because of me I don’t know what i want Like I want him I really do but the him I want Is gone not gone gone but he’s not besides me He’s not making me laugh Were not laughing late at night Were not playing roblox like we use to I miss him so much but I can’t be with him Why? Cause were so toxic but I mean does it matter I know were toxic but we fight and fight but in the end We always say I love you I miss him but I’m with a her To get over him I don’t thinks that’s okay I mean its not It’s really not Im hurting her and myself cause I keep lying and saying “I love you” but do i mean it? I don’t know But what I do know is that I want him but he’s gone So I’m stuck with her while I shouldn’t say it like that But I am