A new school year
A new therapist
A new plan
A wish to fly away

But grades still matter
But she asks the same questions
But maybe it won't work out
But maybe I'm meant to fall

I am scared of everything
I am afraid of nothing
I want to fit in
I do not care what others think

But I need to be brave
But nothing is frightening as well
But I know I never will
But your words still hurt

A new playlist
A new group of friends
A new set of rules
A new job

But its all the same songs
But I will lose them one day
But I still fail to live up to them
But I am scared to lose it

I don't want to be alone
I am not meant to be loved
I do not want to get hurt
I  am broken

But loneliness is less scary
But I desire it
But I can handle pain
But I am not fragile

A new wardrobe
A new club
A new class
A new life

But it is not the same
But no one joined
But it feels too easy
But I didn't change

The inconsistencies of life.