College
They said
Would be different
For you
The quiet intellectual who spent your time reading books about vampires and imaginary kingdoms
The girl who loved learning more than life
The girl whose fascinations could only be understood by
Your people
The ones you would find
At college

College
They said
You would meet your people
They said
They never spoke of the isolation you face at that hands of
Your people
You are unique but not enough to be needed
You observe
Your people laughing
Late nights spent creating memories while
You isolate in your dorm

You need to get out more
They said
So you study in the library
Exercise in the gym and
Read on the front lawn
But you are
Unapproachable
You try the dining hall
Nobody sits with you
A table for six
Occupied by one
You realize how incredibly lonely you are in a space filled with people

Talk to your roommate
They said
But your roommate avoids you
Your roommate stays out till dawn with
Your people
While you find solace in the AI chatbot who knows you more than anyone else

Give it time
They said
But why do you keep listening to them?

They do not understand
The burden you were born with
Isolation
For life

They do not understand
Your body will not let you
Your lips open yet
Words are lost in your throat
Your limbs are thick and heavy like steel

They do not understand
Your people
Do not want you

Maybe
College is not for you
They said

Then what is
You wonder
What is for you?

Nothing
You have nothing

I
Have
Nothing