I am not always there
But I am only witnessing all
this with my own eyes.  
I  see when outside
that we have to be in a
respectable lines.
Being told to follow rules
and you will always do fine.
You will survive.
Order is necessary and
well chaos we need to avoid that...
Its an massive problem, the
unstable cog in that clean engine.
Mother time is our enforcer
and sometimes our healer.
The only witness we have in Life.

We don't always live a life that we care for or we dont always live a life we really need any more.
We  just survive in any way we can,
occasionally suffering trauma along the way that we have to fight day in day out usually alone... dealing with voices of just having yet another mental disorder, insomnia, isolation and despair.
Nothing ever is really what you say
is really true or fair.
We just to live to survive the day and yes we usually repeat that process again, again and again.