no one outside of it could ever realize how damaging it can be to see yourself changing and morphing in the lights and reflections looking for the key to finally see who you are begging to be able to see yourself from someone else’s eyes just once and then then you would finally see the whole picture then you would know so you look for ways to create the key yourself the lenses and angles the profiles and sides but none them ever really align sometimes you‘re close and you hope that it‘s true but the next glimpse destroys it the world crumbles and so do you but life isn‘t lived in pictures reflections aren’t always true it‘s more than the eyes can see it‘s you
this is about my never ending struggle with body dysmorphia, sometimes it‘s almost gone but than it creeps up again, and I can‘t do anything about it