i was never fond of hugs
even when i was crying my heart out,
even when i needed comfort,
i never asked for one,
for i never wanted somebody’s warmth

but i keep reminiscing that night
when you hugged me so tight
—it was my first time
feeling someone else’s heart
and everything felt so right
that now, i keep wanting to do that
again and again, and again,
i loved being held in your arms
for it was so gentle and warm

and if it’s you, i won’t mind
doing it millions of times