“WHY CANT YOU JUST BE GOOD ENOUGH!?”
Your words echo inside my mind
How could you say those things to me?

You expect so much out of me
But get mad when I do too much?
Can't you make up your mind

You gaslight yourself into believing your a good mom
But are you really?
The things you say to me..
“I could never treat my kids how i was treated”
But you do..

You've chosen him time and time again
No matter what he's said or done
How is he good enough..
But, I'm not?

I don't think you realize
Everything you put me through is like a bullet cascading against my skin
Every word burns a new hole inside my heart
But it's still always him.

“You don't try hard enough”
Something you've always told me but
I do EVERYTHING
I never get a break

You treat me like some ***** charity case
I've raised your daughters into who they are today
I'm the one who does your duties as a mom
But  I'm still not good enough?

Had me at only 17 and you think you rule the world
You've put me through much more than I deserved..
I was just a kid and I still AM!
I just wish I was good enough for you..
Like him.