touch my neck up down my spine,
am i sickening, unholy?
tell me, am   i   pure?

i will never eat again and i will ask you;
           will you still love me if i am just skin and bone?
are you scared of what i might become,
are you afraid that your mistake will live up to you?

when you feel the bones poking through,
                             are you disgusted?

the shadows seem to grow bigger
    why wont you rip my ribcage  open?

use me as your last sacrifice to god,
as you always preferred him over me.

as proof of love,
a promise never kept,
sit me down and tell me your regrets.

you would never want to be at fault.
                            hide me,
hide me from the world.

dont show anyone what was done to me;
keep me as your secret and my soul in a cage.


you cling to me still,
i am allowed to just breathe.

paint the walls with my secretion
and i will pray i am abundant until the last tear was shed,
to the moon i look up and dream of never being born,

while you watch tv with beer in your hand and your scheming laughter echoing through my head