Your name brings me inner turmoil
‎Reminding me that the peace your absence gave me has an aftertaste.
‎Torn between forgiveness and acceptance
‎Or clinging on to that version of you that stays the same .
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‎I have not once told this story lightheartedly
‎I weighs heavy in my chest , escapes my lips ,barely
‎The issue being I simply can't forget the ugly of it all and it's beauty
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‎Can we feign to forget something the body can't erase ?
‎The sound of your voice , the smile freckle on your cheek
‎Bind to your hip from day one , your memory , is something I just can't shake .
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‎I'm made up of so much of you in more ways than one
‎In who I was , who I am , who I'll become
‎Hating you is the most foolish mistake I can make
‎As it means hating parts of me that I simply can't take away .