My home wasn’t the wonderland I once believed.
There was no warmth—
But it didn’t start that way.
I remember the rainbows in their eyes
When mother and father still loved each other.

Then, a heavy black cape cloaked our roof.
A home meant for love
Shattered—without tools, without warning.
Father became someone I couldn't recognize.
Mother refused to face the truth.

They stayed tangled in a broken ride,
A rollercoaster long past its turn.
Until the tracks split,
And so did they.

We were left behind—
As if we didn’t deserve to know why.

Now—
Mother’s found her sweet soft place.
Father’s left in his quiet space.

I’m not on any side.
But I know pain…
Even in those who caused it.
Even in my father—
For all he put me through.

Still,
Every time I see him
Eating, sleeping, alone—
It breaks my heart
In silence,
Even when I know the truth.