AND THERE WAS ME WITHOUT AN I

Time dawdles
stretches out the crash
to an infinity of now

casually I watch the car
crash into my side
as if it were someone else's story

car runs red light
the crash about to happen
taking...its. . .( time )

I watch my door buckle
as if an invisible monster
wanted to eat its way to me

time...finally(stops):
I fade to black
karate chopped from luggage from the back

I drink up unconsciousness
thirsty for
the oblivion it brings

the world leaves me now
even my thoughts
don't even know me

I am no more
a me
without an I

"You knocked. . ?"
Death asks politely
"No..just...passing through!"

Life swims back to me
from a distant
horizon

"Hey!" shouts Life
"It's me!"
"Do I know you?" I ask  

*

Back in '85 when I was a bookseller and we were returning from a bookfair in Belfast( and where I also saw Nic Roeg introduce his new movie INSIGNIFICANCE ). We stopped at the lights and I glanced casually to my left to see a car jump the lights and head for( in slow slow )motion( me ). I had an eternity to gaze upon my apparent demise. Our folding shelves in the back all shifted forward and my lights went out!