ive read over it a couple times. i think it'll capture my feelings best if i split it.. so im splitting it.

i feel so...
out of place here.
its like they forget
my name
and why im even
there.

(split)

the thoughts
they just keep on racing,
like they're all competing --
winner gets the reward of
tears flowing.
emotions non-stop.
no runner ups.

and they wont stop.
why wont they stop?

i think it's better this way. because after my day today, i know that these pieces were two totally different emotions, related and similar but not the same. and it's not how i wanted this to be. i wanted it to flow and get my point across. which is why piece one is about feeling left out from your friend group and/or drifting from a good friend. it's just about that phase in a friendship where you don't know if they really are true friends. i think we all go through it at some point in our lives.

the second piece is dedicated to a good friend of mine, anxiety, and my other good friend, tears. i get overwhelmed easily and frequently. i think i just needed to get my feelings out with that one. there really isn't much behind it.